Extremely freaking out at the moment 20+

All day I've just been worried about gas leaks and if I catch any rotten egg smells. I haven't but it just scared me when I didn't know what I was doing and I can't stop thinking about the thought of the house blowing up completely because of my carelessness. I want to learn how to cook and be comfortable with it but that put me off of it entirely.

@BigGyro09 I completely understand.

@JorgeMac2017 I'm just hoping my worst fears don't come true today. I just hope I didn't do anything terrible or anything I can't take back.

Thank you. I hope so too. I just hope nothing comes out of this. I really hope nothing bad happens. I'm worried to leave my house but I have to. I just really hope my house doesn't explode.

@BigGyro09 I often feel this way - thinking about you🙏

I think what I have is an electric stove. It looked like one but I'm not sure. I didn't hear any clicking, I didn't smell anything, and I checked many many times for smells. I thought I smelled it once but I don't think I did. I turned it off completely. It scared me badly. I just hope my worst fears don't come true. I just hope I didn't put many lives at risk.

I'm started to feel really dumb about it but I'm just hoping that's my anxiety talking with all of this.

I think it's a gas stove and it makes me worry even more. I just really hope things turn out okay for today.

@BigGyro09 You are not dumb. Suffering from a mental health issue, that causes doubt, worry and fear doesn't make you stupid. OCD makes us feel bad, therefore we should try to be kind to ourselves, always. ☺️

@Zoë_84 I just feel careless about the whole thing, even though I didn't doubt myself with what was happening. It was all like a rude awakening kind of thing. Sometimes I just think when something goes wrong, even if it was an accident, it's hard not to be on myself because it's all my fault.

@BigGyro09 We are all human, therefore we are not perfect and that's okay.

@Zoë_84 You're right. I'm still worried about it all but I think with time the worry will subside. Everything seems fine and okay.

@BigGyro09 I can't agree, as it would be reassurance. But I'm proud of you for hanging in there and waiting for the fear to subside, instead of checking. You got this!

@Zoë_84 Thank you. You're very helpful. The only thing that's bothering me now is the thought of my house exploding but it really does seem like everything is back to normal.

@BigGyro09 It would be great, if rational reasoning helped against OCD, but unfortunately doesn't. The only thing we can do is to take normal messures regarding safety and apart from that sit with our intrusive thoughts.

@Zoë_84 So far nothing has come of what happened and I'm glad that it isn't. Now I know that I'm not going to try cooking until I get used to the stove. I used to be able to do it with my old stove but not this one. Soon I will though. I just thought I was used to it and knew what I was doing, that's all. I just can't help but think of the worst case scenario playing over and over in my head though. I just have to sit with it until it goes away, as you said.