had a breakdown and started crying in my drawing class because my ocd wouldn’t let me start making marks on the page for the fear of messing up. I talked to my professor about needing to leave and he was very nice, and said I can come work on it over the weekend. I went to the bathroom to wash my face before going back to class and as I looked at my red crying face in the mirror I thought “what if I’m just faking this and I’m actually just lazy and don’t wanna draw” :(

ejgh

Date posted: 5y

If anyone knew why we get OCD they’d get recognised for their scientific contribution! We’ve all had these worries, but it’s all just part of it. Maybe the stress of the class made your OCD worse? Just know its not your fault.

ejgh

Date posted: 5y

I just got to bed thinking the exact same thing! (Where I live its in the middle of the night right now) I think studying is very stressful for us with OCD, cause not only does the disorder itself cause us stress, but the workload also does, which in turn makes OCD worse. I find I need to just try to get ahead a little bit, then my stress reduces a lot!

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

i'm so sorry for both your experience and the unhelpful comment you received (thankfully, it seems like other people have been more empathetic). i'm a freelance artist and OCD tries to ruin my ability to draw on a daily basis. it also tells me i'm just being avoidant and lazy, too... as if not being able to draw wasn't enough. OCD is so cruel. it's helped me in the past to mark up some of my (new) sketchbooks before i use them. i'll bend a corner of the paper, do a little doodle in the margins, sign my name or write positive things at the bottom of each page... that way i don't feel as bad about "messing up." take care, and i hope you make some beautiful art. ❤️

GummyDrop

Date posted: 5y

Sorry for that I can’t imagine ocd ruining something you love I m sad because I have thoughts of girls downstairs and it’s disgusting, idk if it real or not but I don’t like these thoughts sometimes it can feel so real I’m like hella scared being gay, and I have thoughts of little girls downstairs, I don’t want to be a lesbian or a pedofile this is so baddd it kills my mood and I can’t do anything

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@GummyDrop this really isn't a post about HOCD. if you're struggling, you could always start a new topic.

GummyDrop

Date posted: 5y

@dandy I did

guava

Date posted: 5y

thank you so much for your words and your advice, it’s so helpful to hear about someone having the same experience. i’ll definitely take your advice and start making little marks on my sketchbooks too. i won’t give up trying to make art! thank you❤️

guava

Date posted: 5y

you’re right. I’ve been having a hard time adjusting to being back in school after taking a year off to work and all my assignments catching up to me are making my OCD really intense. Hopefully with some sleep I’ll be able to start my day tomorrow with a clearer head and continue tackling my schoolwork

GummyDrop

Date posted: 5y

Sorry but I think hocd is worse idk just my opinion

guava

Date posted: 5y

why do you feel the need to be rude for no reason?

GummyDrop

Date posted: 5y

@guava Sorry ocd is bad for anyone, I said that because I have more disgusting thoughts and it makes me hate myself more. I have hocd and me have very gay thoughts

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