- Date posted
- 42w
POCD need help
I was at the mall and I'm 19f, me and my friend were grabbing food and looking for a table to sit and I wanted to near these boys I saw, I guess just for attention. I did not realize they were like young teenagers until I actually looked at them when we got close. I thought they'd be around my age, maybe 16-17 years old I really don't know what I was thinking. But whenever I saw they were definitely younger (I have bad eyesight I can't see very well even with contacts) I got up from that table and moved away and just felt disgusted the entire time with myself that I wanted attention or wanted to be seen by them. I feel awful and it really triggered my POCD. What can I do? I'm not a pedo, I know for sure, it just still feels disgusting. Can anyone help?