- Username
- DrBurnzz
- Date posted
- 5y ago
The "black and white" OCD brain is completely binary, and fails to exist in that middle space. So when I got this thought, it spurred on suicidal OCD. Why? Because my black and white brain said "well if you can't figure out right now why you're alive, then you must want to be dead." Or "depressed people can't see the good in life so you must be depressed, and soon you'll be suicidal . And people don't recover from that." It's ridiculous when I type it out, but it makes sense to me. That's the OCD problem. It doesn't operate on logic.
I feel the EXACT same way that you do. These thoughts have sent me down the OCD rabbit hole for a little over a year now. I think it's important to question our being. Why are we doing what we do? I think a large majority of people don't even do that. But, at least for me, I know that it's been hijacked by OCD because there is no middle ground. For example, I think there's a meaning to everything or there isn't. However, what about a middle ground? Accept the fact that you'll figure it out or you simply don't know right now or thinking about it doesn't impair your goals and day to day life?
I struggle with the same. Honestly I feel like I'm just waiting for these thoughts to hit me so I'll have another breakdown.
The first option fits the best
With existential ocd how long does your thought last
Its more of a whole life change. Everything you do now relates to your new way of thinking. So i could be doing anything and ask myself why am i doing it, whats the benefit, whats the meaning and its like woah i never thought of that before, its like reality was at the back of my mind and now been pushed to the front. Why would i want to go watch football Old me: you know, the excitement to win, ive always supported them New me: ye its 22 people running round a pitch to hit a ball in a net that realistically means nothing. So its more accept the reality of things and dont think in to it
I'd be happy to talk more if you want my email address.
I’d to talk more with people about this one
@corey My email is jmtaglienti96@gmail.com. Feel free to write to me
I need help! Can anyone tell me if this sounds like Existential OCD? For the past year or so always think “what is the point” about so many things . This started because I realized me and my husband don’t have any friends, so every time I try to exercise or look nice I start thinking “what is the point, why do I care to impress random people” I don’t know .. it’s so fkd I hate this shit I need help or I’m gonna end up killing my self
*Huh!? Whats the point in doing that?* WHY? My mind has decided it will ask me this question whenever i'm doing ANYTHING! For instance; *I'm at work* - Why am i here? To earn money - For what? House, car, clothes? - For what? Well i dont want to have no money and live on the streets? - Why? Coz i'll starve and i dont want that - Why? Because evolution has taught me to survive - Why survive? I DONT FUCKING KNOW Like obviously when you look at life in the big picture, thousand years from now my life won't matter. I love my family, friends etc but what am i here for? To work, have a couple holidays and nights out a year and grow old and die? Since i had this awakening i can't seem to dismiss this belief. Anything i do seems pointless, because i look right through it to the core and say why am i genuinely doing this and the true reason is never justified. Whether it be for fun or health...what does it matter in the grandscheme..NOTHING. 'So why do anything' is my brains new logic. Anyway, i know ERP would be to except that lifes probably meaningless and i'll never get a minutes peace in my life because i'll always be reminded by this fact but is anyone dealing with anything similar? Cheers.
Existential Anxiety Anyone else question their life’s purpose or wonder if there is an afterlife. I have been obsessing over the idea that we are mortal and it’s stressing me out. I want to live in the moment and enjoy my life, but I can’t stop obsessing over these thoughts. Can anyone relate? What helps?
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