Existential OCD Bit of a rant... Are the majority of people unaware of how meaningless their lives actually are or are they aware but think fuck it and carry on? Example; Saving up to go on holiday Brain "why would i want to go on holiday? You're going to work all year, to go to a warmer part of the world for 1 week and lie around sun bathing, maybe get drunk a few days and fly home?" .... As much as i don't want to look at it that way, its true. I look at it right at its core, what it truly is. I can do the same with life... My brain - "whats the point in working all year, every year to go on a few holidays (warmer parts of the world) in my life, have some good times to die, like whats the point in that?" And im baffled because its true. I'd literally go on holiday to see some pointless monument or get drunk like i could anywhere, eat food i could get anywhere (nowadays) Am i supposed to try and stick my head in the sand and pretend its not a thing or do people just accept it and get over it and live their life knowing its quite meaningless. Its just so annoying that i question 'why' am I actually doing this. Does everybody ask themselves these questions? I can't believe its took me to get to my late 20s to realise this. Its like BAMMM everything you've ever thought was cool or fun actually has no meaning to it. How do people continue to do their daily lives, care free without feeling what they're doing is pointless? I suppose i have a few options; 1. Its true but accept it and get over it. (Currently trying) 2. Freak out forever about it and become depressed 3. Freak out and try and find purpose desperately before realising there is 99.9999% no point in my life (tried) 4. Other..? Anyway, ye any thoughts would be appreciated ??‍♂️?? Cheers.

jtaglienti18

Date posted: 6y

The "black and white" OCD brain is completely binary, and fails to exist in that middle space. So when I got this thought, it spurred on suicidal OCD. Why? Because my black and white brain said "well if you can't figure out right now why you're alive, then you must want to be dead." Or "depressed people can't see the good in life so you must be depressed, and soon you'll be suicidal . And people don't recover from that." It's ridiculous when I type it out, but it makes sense to me. That's the OCD problem. It doesn't operate on logic.

jtaglienti18

Date posted: 6y

I feel the EXACT same way that you do. These thoughts have sent me down the OCD rabbit hole for a little over a year now. I think it's important to question our being. Why are we doing what we do? I think a large majority of people don't even do that. But, at least for me, I know that it's been hijacked by OCD because there is no middle ground. For example, I think there's a meaning to everything or there isn't. However, what about a middle ground? Accept the fact that you'll figure it out or you simply don't know right now or thinking about it doesn't impair your goals and day to day life?

bloomviolet

Date posted: 6y

I struggle with the same. Honestly I feel like I'm just waiting for these thoughts to hit me so I'll have another breakdown.

corey

Date posted: 6y

The first option fits the best

corey

Date posted: 6y

With existential ocd how long does your thought last

DrBurnzz

Date posted: 6y

Its more of a whole life change. Everything you do now relates to your new way of thinking. So i could be doing anything and ask myself why am i doing it, whats the benefit, whats the meaning and its like woah i never thought of that before, its like reality was at the back of my mind and now been pushed to the front. Why would i want to go watch football Old me: you know, the excitement to win, ive always supported them New me: ye its 22 people running round a pitch to hit a ball in a net that realistically means nothing. So its more accept the reality of things and dont think in to it

jtaglienti18

Date posted: 6y

I'd be happy to talk more if you want my email address.

corey

Date posted: 6y

I’d to talk more with people about this one

jtaglienti18

Date posted: 6y

@corey My email is jmtaglienti96@gmail.com. Feel free to write to me

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