I was fine for a few months and I feel my HARMOCD is coming back. It’s still the targeted thought to “kill mom” it’s bringing me alot of anxiety and it’s the only thought that is still around. What do I do?
My brain has repeated many things. Things that give me terrible anxiety and some that still persist. Do not try to calm yourself down from the thought. Unless it really feels completely unbearable and it’s urgent then yes do a technique. Desensitizing yourself to your thoughts does not work right away. The goal is to to be able to sit with the thoughts without immense anxiety. Not to get rid of them. Once your brain gets bored then they can go away. But again that’s not the goal. I know this is scary and I’m so sorry you’re experiencing this. I understand about money being tight, maybe look into grants or financial aid for erp.
Use ice on your chest and neck... Breathe.. do 5-4-3-2-1 grounding technique... If still feeling in danger, call for help
@hanysm@gmail.com Call for help? For what?
Are you in OCD therapy with a trained OCD therapists who uses ERP therapy?
@Steven55! No moneys tight
Be mindful that OCD attaches itself to who and what you value and what you fear. You can also be enjoying yourself and it will try to find a way to screw up your day.
It’s perfectly normal to have a thought like “kill your mom”. The problem is not with having the thought but with the meaning you attach to it. This means do everything you can not to answer the questions that come up after the thought such as “do I want to kill her?” “What if I lose control?” Am I a bad person for having these thoughts?”trying to answer these questions would be you doing a compulsion and will only make things worse and keep the initial intrusive thoughts stronger. Think of this as a math problem like 82x67, it would take you mental effort to try and figure this out, but you can choose whether you do it. Your ocds questions are the same except without an actual answer so don’t put in the effort to figure it out
I deal pretty heavily with this. The last couple days, I’ve had what I think are urges. Something pops into my head intrusively and then what stems from that is me WANTING to just indulge in it even though it’s gross. I get worried bc I used to struggle w thoughts about my dad for a long time until eventually I just purposely thought of him while self pleasuring and got off to it. While that’s something I did, it is NOT me. It all stemmed from my mental health declining a couple years back, I was never this way before. So I get worried that it almost happened or might happen with my pocd cuz I could never live with myself if it did.
i’m back in a cycle of having harm related OCD thoughts and feelings and urges and i get these episodes where it’s like i’m disassociating and feel like i’m about to snap and go crazy violent. does anyone else experience this? i need help
So I had a panic attack a while ago to “kill mom” and I forgot about the thought until a few days later. When it came back I was mentally drained and it lasted for 2 months or more. It eventually went away but it is back. I get other intrusive thoughts but they go away after a hour or so. Why am I stressing over “kill mom” so much. I just get irritated that it won’t go away. I’m beginning to think it’s a different mental illness maybe just anxiety? I’m not sure to be honest. It just appears and sits there and I feel like I’m doomed and a pyscho and worry that I’ll never forget the thought.
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