jeez i haven’t been on here in a while but like everything is so much and it’s just funny at this point how fucked everything feels. and i don’t even know who i am anymore and i can’t even say that i care if i do or not. idek everything is just so out of wack

I just wanna be happy I have so much things I want to be successful in life but I can’t stop thinking if I’m a lesbian pedofile or it’s ocd , it feels real and idk if I liked it

Did you have the same feeling as me

@GummyDrop not about the same things but yeah the same feeling of it being real or either being convinced or confused whether it’s actually true or not yk?

@ty03 Shit am I the only one having thoughts about a little girls downstairs to see if im a lesbian pedofile or not, this is one of the hardest thing I’ve gone through in my life, I used to have so many dreams about succeeding in life now having these thoughts stops me from that

@GummyDrop you aren’t the only one, sure i don’t have thoughts about those things. but there are many people who have the same or similar thoughts to those. so you aren’t alone, maybe seek help from a therapist or something, it can really help you sort through these things and make it easier to manage the rest of your life

@ty03 Can I talk to a therapist here?

@GummyDrop what do you mean? like on the app?

@ty03 Yes there’s a therapist button idk

@GummyDrop oh yeah the therapy on here isn’t really talking to someone about it, but it’s more exposure therapy. it can help the thoughts die down and easier to manage if you do it long enough yk?

@ty03 How can I recover?

@GummyDrop best bet is seeing a therapist who knows about ocd and talking through the thoughts with them

@ty03 If that was easy to do... I wish I could see and ocd therapist it’s not that easy you know?

@GummyDrop yeah i understand that, it is a lot harder than it should be. there are some online resources too, or group therapy which can be easier

@ty03 Do you go to a ocd therapist?

@GummyDrop yeah lol, she works with more than just ocd but basically

@ty03 Luckyyyyy did you pay?

@GummyDrop lol my parents pay for it, but mostly my insurance does. so we only pay like idk less than 50$

@ty03 I wish I can go. But Idk if there even is a ocd therapist in my area, and 50 for an hour?

I’m still young and this is all so confusing, I rather talk eye to eye with a ocd therapist, cause I want nothing more than to talk to a ocd therapist, if I do I feel like a lot of weight has been lifted off my shoulder

@GummyDrop yeah i understand rhat, it just takes time, but once you do talk to an ocd therapist it’ll all be worth it

@ty03 Right now I want nothing more than talk eye to eye with an ocd therapist. But it’s hard to explain what ocd is to my mom, she’ll think I’m overthinking and tell me to do homework or read a book. And then I cry cause she don’t understand, telling me I’m overthinking makes it worse, cause deep down I know I have a mental illness named ocd. What should I do to see an ocd therapist, without her thinking I’m dumb?