Some days it's just hard to get up out of bed because everywhere is in pain due to dryness from my finger tips till my elbows are full of cuts and blood, yet I still wash my hands and I want to give up so bad. The intrusive thoughts of loved ones dying comes and goes, I cried myself to sleep the other night but if anything does happen I know that I'll start drinking. I'm sorry but I just had to write this down.

Constant hand washing because of cleaning OCD

@Itz Have you try ocd therapist?

@GummyDrop I have but it didn't help so much but I requested a therapist from work (that's how it works for me), that was 2 months ago and still I haven't received an appointment.

@Itz Huh? You tried a ocd therapist and it didn’t work? What do you mean? Aren’t ocd therapist supposed to help you?

@Itz And also how are you now? Are you feeling better?

@GummyDrop They are and sometimes they do but not all therapists are the best at OCD

@GummyDrop Well right now, I'm a little bit better I guess. I'm currently ignoring my physical and mental pain just to go to work.

@Itz Ohh, I already knew not to go to any other therapist only ocd therapist cause that’s what I’m dealing with.

@Itz I wanna go to an ocd therapist but its expensive and idk if there’s even one in my area

@GummyDrop Ya my previous therapist told me that I should find someone more professional with OCD next time but who knows when that will be

@Itz So damn relatable, like next times means never and then I’ll just have to deal with this shit forever

@GummyDrop That's exactly how I feel

@Itz I’m still young and ocd is making me crazyyy I hope I can talk to an ocd eye to eye. Maybe you should talk to your friends about your ocd and ask if they can help you find an ocd therapist.

@GummyDrop I will thanks, I hope you find one as well

@Itz Do your parents know about your ocd?

@GummyDrop Yes they do, do yours?

@Itz No, if I tell my mom she’ll said I’m overthinking. Which makes mad sad cause she don’t understand, and ocd is being taken as seriously as it should

@GummyDrop I'm sorry that I'm not really good at advice and all but I heard that there's a great book called, "when someone in your family has OCD". I personally am open about my OCD and I'm happy with that but that isn't the case with everyone.

@Itz If I choose not to have ocd I would chose not to, I’m open about my ocd just depends how close I’m with that person ima not gonna make a whole scene about it to people who I’m not that close to. How has your parents help you with your ocd?

@GummyDrop I understand, simply being supportive

@Itz I don’t if I’ll ever see an ocd therapist but I for sure know that I have a check up to see my doctor every year, so if I see her next year I’m definitely gonna speak up about my ocd and get the help I want

@GummyDrop Good luck with that

@Itz I’ve been listening to NF a rapper who talks about ocd

@GummyDrop Cool I never heard about anyone who does that but I always thought Imagine Dragons: Monster would a good anthem for OCD.

@Itz Listen to MF he’s been dealing with ocd and he raps about ocd, truly helps me alot

@GummyDrop I'll look it up, thanks

@Itz Tell me what you think

@GummyDrop I'm not generally into rap but I really like this, I heard three of his songs including "Leave me Alone" it was very relatable, thanks.

@Itz And “the search” is the best

@GummyDrop Thanks I'll give it a try

@GummyDrop Thanks I really liked it

@Itz Hope that helps cause I wanna help as much people as I can

@GummyDrop Thank you, it does