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Ohhhh good theory never thought that before be on a look out
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yeah people really out here playing with people’s emotion with mental illness, that take people who have a mental illnesses as a advantage, if she says you have hocd just by asking a couple simple questions then he probably wants money
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Well, it was a therapist that posted it
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If you told you that it was this article that got me to relapse in HOCD after 11 years of beating it, would you believe me? No my HOCD has evolved and I wish it was just reading that article, cause it doesn't trigger me anymore. Anyways... what is your concern? He may know stuff abiut sexuality; but not about hocd clearly. If you have OCD, you just need something to trigger your fear. It can be that you have enjoyed gay porn all your life and suddenly your mind says "wait, why am I watching this? Am I gay"? In short people who watch gay porn also can have HOCD about it. That's not exactly what he's saying though...
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Psychology today is a bullshit news agency and a lot of their articles are bullshit. Of course the vast majority of people with hocd are straight people turned on by gay porn. That has nothing to do with it. OCD is obsessing over it all day long and thinking that it makes you gay to the point where you do compulsions. Normal people just watch the porn and say they're into it and move on. People with OCD cling to things that don't matter. The theme of the OCD is absolutely irrelevant.
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And just because someone is a therapist doesn't mean they're not a quack.
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What’s irrelevant???
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@GummyDrop The themes of OCD are irrelevant to the disorder. What I'm saying is it doesn't matter what theme you have, if you have ocd your brain attaches to untrue fears and glitches out. We obsess over thoughts that neurotypical people don't have an issue disregarding. All people have the thoughts that we have the difference is we think our intrusive thoughts are profound and hold meaning when they don't.
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@hateocd123 Do you know the differences between a non ocd brain and a ocd brain?
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@GummyDrop We produce more stress hormones, and we can even have some slight swelling compared to non ocd brains, but other than that doctors speculate that we either don't produce enough serotonin OR that we produce too much Glutamate and too little GABA. Glutamate is an excitatory neurotransmitter in the brain that plays an important role in things like memory and learning. When needed glutamate turns into GABA which does the opposite and kind of calms down the brain (it's responsible for the spaces in between words when we talk). Too much glutamate in the brain can become an excito-toxin and kill brain cells and spill out into other brain cells. When this happens it can't turn into GABA and our brains can't calm down. We don't really know why this happens yet. Some think diet contributes, but we really have no idea yet. Whether Glutamate and GABA, or serotonin are responsible, we know something is amok when it comes to our neurotransmitters altogether.
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@hateocd123 ? this is sad to know my brain does that
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Or at least, not because they are therapist it means they know about every condition. Certainly this guy doesn't know about ocd. Actually, the first case he cites has clear symptoms of OCD that apparently the therapsit couldn't notice...
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I never watched gay porn nor do I have the desire but I have HOCD. I actually got further triggered by straight porn lol
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Yeah seeing someone from the same sex and getting aroused is triggering to people who have hocd
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@GummyDrop I watched the porn in hoping to regain attraction then my eyes drifted on the guy and I thought “what if I’m the girl in the scene” and I slapped my laptop closed in disgust. Now I have reoccurring thoughts of if I would do what the girl was doing and it can feel like an urge but it’s not real I’m always grossed out
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@evkrey I’m grossed out by my thoughts of being a lesbian pedofile, I tested myself to see if that was true, and a image of a little girls downstairs poped up and idk if I like it or not. Sometimes I test myself to see if I even like it or not, I don’t want to be a lesbian pedofile. Is this common in hocd, please tell me I’m not the only one dumb to even think these images
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@GummyDrop Of course you're not. Testing to unwanted thoughts is as basic to OCD as basic can be.
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@GummyDrop I don’t want to give reassurance but if you’re “testing”/ “checking” stuff to see your reaction you very likely have OCD. You can conjure up any thought to make it seem real to you because you can’t handle not knowing if it is or not. That’s textbook OCD
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@evkrey I know I have ocd I just wanna be diagnosed with it so I can prove my to my mom I’m not crazy and it’s a mental illness
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@GummyDrop We can’t diagnose you because we aren’t licensed therapists/specialists but you sound like you have OCD. Show your mom this article: https://www.intrusivethoughts.org/ocd-symptoms/sexual-orientation-ocd/
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@evkrey She can’t read in English
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@evkrey I don’t wanna have pocd, I’ve already am dealing with hocd
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That's true
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trigger warning!!!!!! I’m really scared right now. I’ve been reading Elle Warren’s articles about her experience with HOCD/SO-OCD, and it feels so similar to mine. She went through the same fears of being a lesbian, felt distressed by her attraction to women, and spent hours ruminating, Googling, and analyzing her feelings. She even experienced groinal responses and revisited old memories, just like I do. Eventually, she had a moment of realization in college when she flirted with a girl, and everything clicked. She now identifies as a lesbian. I’m terrified that the same thing will happen to me. I thought the OCD fears were supposed to never be true and that HOCD thoughts are usually just compulsions that don’t end up being real. But reading her story, it’s like I’m seeing my own experience mirrored. What if it clicks for me, just like it did for her? What if I realize that I am a lesbian? Elle’s story makes me so scared. I thought my feelings of attraction to women were just OCD-driven, and now I’m questioning everything. I thought I was straight, but now, reading her journey, I’m wondering: could my OCD fears actually be real? Elle’s experience was very similar to mine: • She got distressed when she thought she might like women, not relieved. • She spent a lot of time ruminating, Googling, analyzing, and comparing. • Her attraction to women only became intense when her OCD flared up. • She said things like, “I feel peace when I believe I’m straight.” • She had already been diagnosed with OCD and had a history of this pattern. After years of fear and distress, Elle had a moment of calm and realized that it was true. I’m scared that this could happen to me too. Will I have a similar moment of acceptance, where everything clicks and I realize I’m gay? Or will I come to accept that this is all OCD, and that I’m straight, with the possibility that I’m not? I also keep thinking back to when my OCD lessened the first time. Did I go back to men because I wasn’t actually attracted to women, or was it just because the grip of the OCD had loosened? Elle also talked about the shame associated with non-heterosexuality. She mentioned that, like many of us, she had internalized stigma around being gay, and that it made her fear the possibility of being non-heterosexual. I can relate to this so much—growing up, I never saw it as an option to be anything other than straight, and now it’s hard to shake that fear and shame. Elle mentioned that she found reassurance in seeing other people with HOCD who worried that their fears would come true, but eventually realized they were just OCD thoughts. That idea is comforting, but also a little scary, because what if that moment of realization happens for me too? What if I finally accept that I am a lesbian? Or, what if I’m just struggling with OCD and eventually realize I’m straight? I just don’t know. The scariest part is that, just like Elle, I feel like I don’t have any obvious signs. She had no idea she was a lesbian until one day, everything clicked. She was 21, just like me when my OCD fears really flared up, and she had a breakthrough moment in Denver when she made friends with lesbians. That hasn’t happened for me yet, and it’s terrifying to think that it could happen in the future. I don’t know what’s going to happen, but I’m really scared about where this will lead.
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Hey everyone, I’m reaching out because I’ve been going through one of the hardest mental spirals of my life, and I’m hoping someone can relate or shed light on what’s happening to me. About 4 months ago, I accidentally came across a trans porn scene. It didn’t do much at the time, but later it triggered this overwhelming intrusive thought: “What if I’m gay?” Since then, it’s been absolute hell. I’ve always been into women—emotionally, sexually, everything. I’ve been in a long-term relationship with a girl I love deeply. But after that moment, my brain started spiraling into nonstop analysis. I began checking how I felt around men, whether I felt attraction, whether I was in denial, whether I was lying to myself. Literally everything became a test. I got stuck in this loop: • A thought pops in → panic • Try to solve it → brief relief • Another thought → worse panic • Repeat. At times, it got so bad I couldn’t feel anything at all—toward my girlfriend, toward women, toward myself. I started doubting everything. Some days, I feel emotionally flat, like I’ve lost my personality. Other days, I wake up with a full-body jolt of “truth” like “I’m definitely gay”—only for it to fade into numbness again. I’ve also noticed that I get short bursts of peace when I stop reacting, but then the fear comes back louder, like “See? Now you’re accepting it. That means it’s true.” Therapy hasn’t helped much so far—it felt more like general counseling. They told me to sit with the thoughts, but didn’t clarify if this was OCD, identity questioning, or trauma. That just made it worse because now I’m back to thinking “What if I’m just rejecting my truth?” I’m exhausted. I’ve lost connection to everything I used to love. • I want to love my girl again the way I used to • I want to feel desire without overthinking • I want to trust myself again I’m not looking for reassurance—I just want to know if anyone else has gone through something like this, and if this sounds like HOCD or identity OCD. Thanks for reading.
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I really need help understanding what I’m going through. For a long time now, I’ve been struggling with thoughts and feelings about women that confuse and scare me. Sometimes I feel this strange emotional or mental ‘pull’ toward certain women — it’s not exactly sexual, and not clearly romantic either, but it feels like something, and it triggers deep anxiety. When I see a beautiful woman or a WLW (woman-loving-woman) couple, I feel something that I can’t explain — sometimes I think it’s just admiration or aesthetic appreciation, but OCD keeps telling me: “You felt something, so you must be gay,” or “You’re hiding something.” I get stuck in endless loops, trying to analyze these moments and label them. Even when I feel physical or emotional reactions, they don’t feel natural or aligned with who I am. They feel like a reaction to the idea of women, not real attraction. I try to be honest with myself — I even told a friend I might be bisexual at some point, just to test if that felt more comfortable. But it didn’t. It made things worse, and I felt like I lost touch with who I am. I don’t want to lie to myself or live in denial, but I’m exhausted. It feels like I’m being mentally forced to feel something that isn’t mine. I’m 14, and I understand that things might still be developing, but I can’t help feeling like I’ve always been drawn to men, and never naturally wanted women that way. Still, I keep doubting everything. Is this real attraction or OCD feeding false feelings and thoughts? Can OCD create emotional or mental sensations that feel like desire? I’m so scared that I’ll lose myself, or find out something I never wanted. I just want peace and to feel like myself again.
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