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- advocate109
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- 5y ago
Ohhhh good theory never thought that before be on a look out
yeah people really out here playing with people’s emotion with mental illness, that take people who have a mental illnesses as a advantage, if she says you have hocd just by asking a couple simple questions then he probably wants money
Well, it was a therapist that posted it
If you told you that it was this article that got me to relapse in HOCD after 11 years of beating it, would you believe me? No my HOCD has evolved and I wish it was just reading that article, cause it doesn't trigger me anymore. Anyways... what is your concern? He may know stuff abiut sexuality; but not about hocd clearly. If you have OCD, you just need something to trigger your fear. It can be that you have enjoyed gay porn all your life and suddenly your mind says "wait, why am I watching this? Am I gay"? In short people who watch gay porn also can have HOCD about it. That's not exactly what he's saying though...
Psychology today is a bullshit news agency and a lot of their articles are bullshit. Of course the vast majority of people with hocd are straight people turned on by gay porn. That has nothing to do with it. OCD is obsessing over it all day long and thinking that it makes you gay to the point where you do compulsions. Normal people just watch the porn and say they're into it and move on. People with OCD cling to things that don't matter. The theme of the OCD is absolutely irrelevant.
And just because someone is a therapist doesn't mean they're not a quack.
What’s irrelevant???
@GummyDrop The themes of OCD are irrelevant to the disorder. What I'm saying is it doesn't matter what theme you have, if you have ocd your brain attaches to untrue fears and glitches out. We obsess over thoughts that neurotypical people don't have an issue disregarding. All people have the thoughts that we have the difference is we think our intrusive thoughts are profound and hold meaning when they don't.
@hateocd123 Do you know the differences between a non ocd brain and a ocd brain?
@GummyDrop We produce more stress hormones, and we can even have some slight swelling compared to non ocd brains, but other than that doctors speculate that we either don't produce enough serotonin OR that we produce too much Glutamate and too little GABA. Glutamate is an excitatory neurotransmitter in the brain that plays an important role in things like memory and learning. When needed glutamate turns into GABA which does the opposite and kind of calms down the brain (it's responsible for the spaces in between words when we talk). Too much glutamate in the brain can become an excito-toxin and kill brain cells and spill out into other brain cells. When this happens it can't turn into GABA and our brains can't calm down. We don't really know why this happens yet. Some think diet contributes, but we really have no idea yet. Whether Glutamate and GABA, or serotonin are responsible, we know something is amok when it comes to our neurotransmitters altogether.
@hateocd123 ? this is sad to know my brain does that
Or at least, not because they are therapist it means they know about every condition. Certainly this guy doesn't know about ocd. Actually, the first case he cites has clear symptoms of OCD that apparently the therapsit couldn't notice...
I never watched gay porn nor do I have the desire but I have HOCD. I actually got further triggered by straight porn lol
Yeah seeing someone from the same sex and getting aroused is triggering to people who have hocd
@GummyDrop I watched the porn in hoping to regain attraction then my eyes drifted on the guy and I thought “what if I’m the girl in the scene” and I slapped my laptop closed in disgust. Now I have reoccurring thoughts of if I would do what the girl was doing and it can feel like an urge but it’s not real I’m always grossed out
@evkrey I’m grossed out by my thoughts of being a lesbian pedofile, I tested myself to see if that was true, and a image of a little girls downstairs poped up and idk if I like it or not. Sometimes I test myself to see if I even like it or not, I don’t want to be a lesbian pedofile. Is this common in hocd, please tell me I’m not the only one dumb to even think these images
@GummyDrop Of course you're not. Testing to unwanted thoughts is as basic to OCD as basic can be.
@GummyDrop I don’t want to give reassurance but if you’re “testing”/ “checking” stuff to see your reaction you very likely have OCD. You can conjure up any thought to make it seem real to you because you can’t handle not knowing if it is or not. That’s textbook OCD
@evkrey I know I have ocd I just wanna be diagnosed with it so I can prove my to my mom I’m not crazy and it’s a mental illness
@GummyDrop We can’t diagnose you because we aren’t licensed therapists/specialists but you sound like you have OCD. Show your mom this article: https://www.intrusivethoughts.org/ocd-symptoms/sexual-orientation-ocd/
@evkrey She can’t read in English
@evkrey I don’t wanna have pocd, I’ve already am dealing with hocd
That's true
[NSFW] hocd or denial? I'm lost and confused... I (m18) have been straight my whole life. I fantasized about girls, only got hard to them, masturbated to them... I've had a girlfriend for almost 2 years now and she is the most wonderful person ever, and I am attracted to her both romantically and sexually. So, all of it started three years ago. I saw a movie with a gay sex scene and I thought that it must feel pretty good to be at the bottom. Since then, I sometimes (but not often) thought about being on the bottom when masturbating. Although I felt kind of aroused by the thought, I thought it was a simple fantasy or fetish that I have. I tried some stuff to myself down there but I never liked it. I never had a crush on any man, nor have I ever had romantic interest in a man. About 3 weeks ago I really thought about it and I started thinking I was gay. I thought I was gay because I got kind of aroused by thinking about gay sex like this. I thought I wasn't gay because I was never interested in a man and I always had crushes on women but then I thought I was gay because I was aroused by the thought of gay sex. I started to check myself in my head by thinking of gay sex and straight sex to see if I would be aroused, and I looked at some straight porn - and once even gay porn - to see if I would be aroused. I got a bit hard from the gay porn which made me panic. I feel less aroused in general and it feels like my libido has crashed. Now, when I try to masturbate, I sometimes only think about gay sex, which makes me panic more. It feels like I'm losing my love for my girlfriend, and it feels like I'm less attracted to her, both romantically and sexually. It feels like I don't love her, but I do, and then I question everything. I feel like it's harder for me to get aroused by women. I used to imagine snuggling with my gf and falling asleep with her, which usually made me aroused, but now I don't get aroused by that. Worse, if I try to imagine doing the same with a male, I don't get aroused either. I sometimes feel like this isn't hocd (I don't know if I even have ocd, I don't have a therapist) and that I'm just in denial. I feel like I'm only not leaving my girlfriend because I don't want to harm her, and I don't love her, but I do, I love her very much and I always imagined spending my future with her. It feels like I love her and I don't at the same time. I don't know what is going on. Am I gay? Bi? I don't want to leave my girlfriend, she is amazing and wonderful and I want to stay with her and I love her, but I constantly doubt that as well. Am I gay or bi if I fantasize about gay sex and get kind of aroused? Again, I never thought about having a romantic relationship with a male, and I only ever wanted to be with women. The thought used to disgust me but thinking about it now doesn't make me feel anything, but then again, neither does thinking about the same with a woman now, which is making me afraid as well. What should I do?? I'm lost and confused and I don't want to be gay or bi, but I constantly doubt myself. I don't want to leave her, but I question even that thought - do I not want to leave her because I love her or because I don't want to hurt her - which makes me even more lost.
I am really concerned by Michael Greenberg article that he posted saying HOCD doesn’t mean you’re not Gay and it doesn’t mean you are Gay it just means you have ocd about your sexual orientation. Really need help understanding this
So my hocd started over 2 years ago (I’m 20 yrs old now), when I was having a conversation with one of my friends and the thought popped into the back of my head what if the reason I don’t have a crush on any guys at my high school is because I’m a lesbian. Since then my sexuality has been on my mind 24/7 I didn’t know this was ocd until about a year ago but i’m only seeking treatment now. The hocd ramped up when I felt super aroused watching a movie with topless women, something that had never happened when watching men. Thing is I genuinely think I’m gay now, I’ve had this for so long that at first the thoughts disgusted me and caused me anxiety but now they don’t anymore. I saw so many tiktok videos about “pipelines” of certain interests gay people have that triggered me and read the comphet masterdoc which made me cry when I read it because I related to so much of it. When I was a child I was never boy crazy, I never really crushed on boys in my class (to be fair there were only 7) however I do remember writing a love note to a boy in first grade and having an immense celebrity crush on a disney channel star. I remember to certain things I did as a child that lead me to think I am gay and they keep replaying over and over in my head. Thing is over the past year I’ve had crushes on 3 guys I’ve met through dating apps. The last one I actually hung out with and I had my first kiss/makeout session 2 months ago. After that my hocd calmed down I enjoyed kissing him it felt euphoric the whole drive home just replaying our dates in my head. But now I can’t get the thought out of my head what if I didn’t like it enough? I didn’t get butterflies when we kissed (i do when I think back about it though) and didnt feel super aroused like that time I watched that movie. I feel nothing when I look at pictures and videos of men but with women I started getting this warm feeling in my chest which stressed me out even more. Idk what I am anymore and it is driving me insane. Does anyone relate?
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