Yaaay!

Life is so different today. When I started ERP, my main focus was to become a better person as a way to safeguard myself from certain actions. That’s not what happened. I still have intrusive thoughts all the time. I am still at times gripped by my main theme. The difference is I am able to respond to them in a nonchalant tone using my response prevention messages, ie “ maybe, maybe not”, “cool” “hmm, I don’t know” “ that may or may not be true.” At first, I thought responding in this way it was kind of bullshit. Now I can say these things out loud while the intrusive thoughts are strong. Sometimes I feel discouraged when I’m not feeling happy all of the time- but then I remember there was a time where my OCD was so bad I wasn’t able to shower or brush my teeth. This morning, I got out of bed, made a pot of coffee and went to work. Anyway, I’m off to purposely trigger myself wish me luck LOL.