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@nae nae Thanks

@Zubaida If you're comfortable, you can type it below, and I'll try to help.

@nae nae Me living don’t seem worth it

@Zubaida I've been in that position. It's hard with OCD because it feels never-ending, but that's not true. A few months ago, I felt the exact same way. My symptoms spiked, and every day was miserable. I couldn't eat, I felt consumed by guilt and shame, and I isolated from family, which, in turn, made things worse. I thought it'd be easier to just not have to deal with it, but I persevered. I found videos on YouTube so I could teach myself to manage those thoughts, and I downloaded this app to feel less alone (and look for advice). I'm doing much better now, and I feel like I can enjoy myself a lot more. I'll still have a few bad thoughts, but it doesn't ruin my entire day. I believe recovery is possible. It just isn't going to be linear. If you're able to do ERP therapy or see an OCD specialist, you'd benefit a lot from it. I'm currently seeking out the same! This isn't the end for us. I believe in you. :)

@Zubaida Is there a specific reason you're feeling like this, though? That living doesn't seem worth it?

@nae nae I feel like a bad person . Also I feel kinda like my compulsions are never enough and it really stresses me out and my parents really don’t understand ocd and how hard it is. I just feel like my whole life I will be so use to being miserable all the time I will never be happy

@Zubaida It's difficult when people around us don't understand what we're going through. I'm sorry if you're feeling alone. Doing compulsions will only feed into the OCD, though. It might tamper down the bad feelings for a little bit, but in the long run, it'll only reinforce it. Why do you feel like you're a bad person?

@nae nae Literally everything, I just have so much hatred towards myself

@Zubaida I told someone else this recently. It's something my psychiatrist shared with me, and it's "Bad people don't worry about whether or not they're bad people."

@nae nae That’s a good point ig. But some how ocd will convince me otherwise

@Zubaida Oh, I know. It's rough🫠 It's called the "doubt disorder" for a reason, I suppose.

@hanysm@gmail.com I feel like life is more than it worth

@Zubaida Explain what you mean?

@hanysm@gmail.com It’s too much effort to stay alive I feel so tired all the time

@Zubaida How is your sleep? Do you eat enough? Do you do enough physical activities?

@hanysm@gmail.com I sleep like 5 hours , I eat fine and don’t do physical activity

@Zubaida So when you say tired, do you mean physically tired or emotionally?

@hanysm@gmail.com Both tbh

@Zubaida Ok, emotionally what hurts? And you need to open up if you want to communicate, otherwise it feels like I am squeezing words out of you 😆.

@hanysm@gmail.com I’m sorry. But tbh I don’t know I feel numb all the time and I have no idea why

@hanysm@gmail.com Sorry again

@Zubaida It is, and feeling numb is common with OCD. Actually it could be a good sign. It could be that you finally don't care about the silliness your brain keeps bringing up. Which is a step in the right direction.

@hanysm@gmail.com It really doesn’t feel like that though

@Zubaida How does it feel then?

@hanysm@gmail.com I feel like I will never experience happiness in my life

@Zubaida Sorry to say, you are wrong. But first you have to define what is happiness. So what is happiness do you think ?

@hanysm@gmail.com Feeling joy in living, feeling like u have purpose and a reason to stay

@hanysm@gmail.com And as weird as it sounds I feel comfort in my struggle with mental health and I don’t know why . I hate struggling but I have been struggling long enough to not know happiness anymore and I’m scared I will always be this way

@Zubaida Who ever claimed that life is all joy? Pain is an inevitable part of living too. For me, happiness is a deeply personal construct. It’s about finding contentment in the present moment—embracing the status quo or adapting to a new one when change arises. Happiness means living fully in the now, free from excessive worry about the past or the future. It’s about accepting your own limitations, embracing uncertainty, and letting go of concerns over things beyond your control. In essence, that’s what happiness truly is. Happiness is a choice.