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i’ve had similar experiences to this except it was with suicidal ocd. but i had the same exact fear of being around knives and going into the kitchen and i lost so much sleep every night because i feared so much for my own safety. and occasionally i would get terrifying thoughts of losing control and harming others. it really does feel so real. but ocd takes what you care about most and makes you doubt everything. it’s going to be okay! i’m so sorry you’re going through this

try your best to accept the thoughts. i am currently feeling the same sick shakeyness due to my ocd theme and it’s miserable. if you wanna talk im here

I used to live in the UK I hope it counts! the mental anguish I have when resist ing compulsions. it's like death by a thousand cuts.

You are not alone in the fight. I deal with constant intrusive thoughts that make me question who I am. It can be very difficult at times. I can relate to the sick, shakey, panicky feelings. I think in your post you nailed exactly what a lot of us with OCD deal with. Thank you for the post and the bravery of being transparent. It helps others more than you know. Stay strong!

I feel you on this one. I mainly struggle with suicidal OCD now, but I used to have harm OCD. I I used to feel the same way. When I get in my episodes, I can’t even leave my bed because I feel so scared of being near anything. The thing about OCD is it will go against what you value most like your life or others lives. You know you don’t really want to do it and your anxiety and panic just goes to show it’s OCD. Just take deep breaths and know that it’s okay. You’re not gonna act on them as much as it feels like an urge it’s all just in your head.