I'm scared that I don't have OCD. While my main theme is hocd It seems like there's a new thing everyday. I watched a video about schizophrenia and now I'm really anxious. I've never heard voices or had hallucinations before, but I feel like I fit all of the early warning signs. Is it normal to be so paranoid with OCD? I had a giant panic attack last night because I woke up from a nightmare with demons in it. I wouldn't let myself go to sleep until it started getting light out because I got really paranoid. I'm so scared of losing control and going off the deep end mentally. I already feel crazy. Why me? Why do I always get the shit end of the stick in life?

Markito

Date posted: 5y

Yes it’s a scary theme, had it myself, but it’s all just same OCD trying to scare you in new disguise... you can do it ??

hannie

Date posted: 5y

Thank you so much. It’s so scary how real it feels. It has convinced me of actually being crazy. I will treat it like it’s OCD and try not to overthink (as much as I can lol) thank you for the great advice. It’s hard to see it clearly when you’re going through it. It helps to have logic explained to you when you can’t always do it. Thank you again!

Markito

Date posted: 5y

Don’t want to reassure you, but if you were delusional you wouldn’t be scared of becoming delusional... you would be in another reality without your meds... do some erp, schiz ocd is quite common....

Markito

Date posted: 5y

Schizophrenia isn’t that bad, people live good lives and there is good treatment for it, no need to fear it... are you doing therapy for your OCD?

GummyDrop

Date posted: 5y

I’ve would tell my mom about ocd but she’ll think I’m crazy

hannie

Date posted: 5y

I’m feeling the exact same way. I have never experienced a hallucination or heard voices but I’m scared that my intrusive thoughts might mean I’m losing it. They seem so delusional and I like believe them for a second. It’s so scary. I don’t know if I’m loosing it or what. I’m so scared. I have also had dreams like that as well. It’s so scary.

hannie

Date posted: 5y

I heard that you don’t know if you’re going crazy though. I’m not sure if that’s true but I’m so so anxious about losing it cause I really feel like I am this time.

hannie

Date posted: 5y

Thank you so much. I will try extra hard to work on my ERP. It’s so frustrating cause the thoughts just fly in and then I’m left feeling like I believe them and or are delusional. So scary. Hoping this passes.

GummyDrop

Date posted: 5y

Yeah like why does this have to feel so sad?

GummyDrop

Date posted: 5y

Anything can trigger it, if you hear about something, you get scared

hannie

Date posted: 5y

@GummyDrop I know! If I hear it in a movie, if I think I’m going crazy, I feel like it’s real and I get this sinking feeling in my stomach. Hoping this passes. I hope this passes for you too. sending you positive thoughts and prayers. You will make it. We will make it????

GummyDrop

Date posted: 5y

@hannie Yeah should I talk to my health teacher about this ocd thing? I can’t afford for a ocd therapist tho

hannie

Date posted: 5y

If you feel a hundred percent comfortable confiding with that person then then I would! They may be able to help you. It’s always good to talk to someone for help. I’m not in therapy at all for it which I hope to change that soon. For now I would do things at home that could help like meditation and healthy diet as well as light exercise! Also breathing exercises help too! Sitting with your thoughts and not reacting is something I’m also trying to work on. It’s so hard. We can do this!

GummyDrop

Date posted: 5y

Yeah! My friends know about this ocd thing, I wanna move forward and get help, I can try to talk to my doctors about it

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