- Date posted
- 34w
Is this hocd?
Whenever I think about a girl I try to brush it off but it keeps on coming back then I think I may like these thoughts. I avoid using gay words because I would never want to be gay. I use to enjoy watching couple videos but not anymore. All my life I’ve been straight and only liked guys who I planned to have kids with. Now I’m scared because this thought goes away and comes back once in a while. My body keeps on telling me Im in denial and deep down I might be gay. But I don’t like this I’ve spent countless hours just thinking and thinking that what if it’s true? Every time I look at a straight couple I don’t like it but I use to love looking at them but neither do I like gay couples. I always wanted a future with a man. What do I do? Is this HOCD??