Sexual assault OCD please help

Whenever I am near attractive women, I’m afraid I’m going to snap and do something evil ! Sometimes I’ve felt my hips move when they’re near me and I start to freak out worried I was trying to do a hump (lol I sound nuts). My hips have literally moved and it scares me now anytime. Also sometimes when a thought of them pops up my finger randomly moves or sometimes if I’m touching my lips and they pop up in my head I start to worry that I was trying to touch my lips sexually when I thought of them. This has ruined my life I’m scared of myself it feels like I’m not in control of my body I do not wanna be alive anymore I wanna protect the world from me

tallikin

Date posted: 31w

it sounds really distressing have to go through this...but try to remember that having intrusive thoughts or sensations doesn't mean you'll act on them. OCD often focuses on the things we care about the most and from the intrusive thoughts you're experiencing, it seems like protecting people is very important to you. the fact you're distressed over this shows your care and goodness as a person. the fact that these thoughts or sensations upset you shows that they're the opposite of what you want or believe in. you're not alone in this!

andrewt_

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 31w

@tallikin Thank you so much. I needed to hear this more than I can say I have started to believe I’m a truly evil person I am struggling so badly but thank you for commenting I really appreciate it!

RobbW2bees

Date posted: 31w

@andrewt_ I concur with all tallinkin said.

andrewt_

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 30w

@RobbW2bees Thank you I hate this I feel so evil

RobbW2bees

Date posted: 30w

@andrewt_ Just take the fact you hate that feeling to know you’re not.

RobbW2bees

Date posted: 30w

@andrewt_ You’re awesome!!!! You are good! You can even just say to that feeling and thoughts maybe, maybe not.

andrewt_

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 30w

@RobbW2bees Thank you so much I appreciate that!! And I’m going to try my best to do that

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 31w

Your movements sounds like anxious responses. I touch my lips when I’m nervous or just for no reason, but I’ve also questioned why I’ve done it. There were ppl near me at the store and I touched my lips and I was like oh no? Am I trying to be sexual??? I think it’s pretty obvious someone who wants to be sexual and intends to be wouldn’t be questioning it and would probably know for a fact lol Your hip movements also sound something similar to what I do, but I do it for SO many different reasons. I do it from anticipation (like during intimacy), discomfort, anxiousness, nerves, and just being inpatient with anything. If you try to remember, you’ll probably find that you move your hips for a bunch of other reasons and it’s not just some sexual thing. I relate to you a lot. I get urges to touch people inappropriately, it makes me so anxious. I’m so scared I’ll snap and do it. I clench my fist and turn away bc it feels so real. It feels so vivid, like I’m genuinely a danger. It’s okay, it’s just anxiety being a bitch and OCD being an ass. I’m scared of myself too, I’m sorry you experience this

andrewt_

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 31w

@issphra 🫶🏻 I needed to hear this more than I can say. I really appreciate you taking the time to write such an in depth comment, it means a lot to me! And I’m sorry you can relate as this stuff isn’t easy to be dealing with at all. Everyday I feel like a monster but like you said there are plenty of explanations for the body movements. I think I’m just so hyper aware so anytime my body has a weird movement, I assume I’m trying to do something horrible. I just wish I didn’t have to deal with this, it has caused me to not know who I am anymore. I just can’t help but feel like I’m an evil person but I know that’s what OCD wants me to think.

Legends123.

Date posted: 22w

Please help

Hello everyone, forgive my bad English since it is not my native language, I have been suffering from OCD for 6 years now. It started with being afraid of harming my loved ones and soon it escalated. All of this leads us here towards sexual obsessions. I was abused many times when I was a child. I don't know if that had any impact on my sexual issues. so everything lead up to a intrusive tought of what would happend if i touch myself with a picture of your parents" and I ended up paying attention to the intrusive tought and i ended up doing what my intrusive tought told me so i said to me "OCD would make me touch myself for everything i loved so what, i would do it before the anxiety attacks" and I end up in a spiral of having touched myself by several photos of my family members, friends and even my own therapist all wanting to prevent future compulsions and anxiety now I only think about taking my life, I never wanted that to happen I am not a monster who has sexual desire towards my loved ones I fell under my own intrusive thought and the only thing I think about now is taking my life life for what I've done

Youactlikeyo...

Date posted: 20w

Is this apart of ocd?

Hi I just have a few questions! (Im 14 btw) Okay so basically I’m really worried I’ll become a pedo/I already am and I don’t know it yet. I’m also really scared if I SA someone, even tho I don’t want to and I’d never do something like that but I feel like this part of me is saying that I will and it’s really scaring me. I feel so alone and I’m so scared I’m a bad person on the inside and this isn’t ocd and I’m gonna unleash hell on this earth I’m so scared. I’ll get a thought like if I’m walking past someone random it will be like “What if you sa them?” And it scares me so bad I feel horrible for thinking that. Is this apart of it? I feel like I’m always fixated on the topic of sa to check if I would do something like that, I don’t know anymore I just feel like a bad person (btw I have not done anything like that to anyone!)

emmagracee

Date posted: 13w

Hey!! Need help kinda urgently

So I have harm ocd for sure and I get triggered by some m1rder cases like for some reason my brain gets latched to them and the perpetrators my brain goes ‘what if they’d find you attractive’ ‘would you be one of their victims’ and it feels like they’re watching me, if that makes sense, like they’re watching me, is this a symptom of any type of OCD? Please no judgement I’m super scared and I hate that my brain does this

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