I will never get my old life back and my old brain back. This OCD has gotten so bad that it feels like there will never be a way out. And when I do feel better, the OCD tells me that I have accepted it. The thought that only makes it worse
Just sit and promise yourself the healing annd deserving journey you are going to give yourself start from noww.Beacuse. you are the only incharge of yourself and deserve to be happy .
I've completely lost my mind, I can't feel reality.
@Lit555 what makes you feel this way
@Anonymous I'm not in reality literally because my girlfriend left me. I'm not in the real world among people. I live in my head. I only move out when I meet my friends, which is very rare.
@Lit555 I think that's why this whole ocd thing is so influential and why it's so lifelike because I'm in my head, not in reality.
I can identify with the night time day time thing. I like the dark and feel calmer. ~ But hey? This is NOT FOREVER. This is just temporary, there will be light at the end of the tunnel. Give yourself permission to grieve your old life and your bf. But, you have to be your own advocate and support yourself by loving yourself. You are somebody and have worth. Don’t let an event or any one person define who you are. You will love again. Humans are resilient. Think of yourself as your own bestfriend. “I love you! We’ve got this. This isn’t forever. We’re gonna get through this. We will have to do some hard work and it will be time well spent. We have so much more ahead to experience. I got your back!” ~ This is the kind of talk I do with myself. Sometimes in the mirror as well. Look yourself on the eyes. It may make you breakdown and cry, but that’s okay. I’m serious. I hope that helps.
Not bf gf but thank you very much for the motivational words it was good 😎🤘
I feel like it never goes away and when I feel good and it goes away, my OCD makes me feel even more anxious.
Hey listen too me on one in the world is goona care for you you are the incharge of yourself of your happiness onone is gonna bring up that for you. So if you are going to give up on yourself who do you expect to come safe you. I need you to go to the mirror and just look at yourself annd cry your heart out but promise your self it will be the last you are going to cry those tears...
@Anonymous there is always something beetter waiting for you you just have to see the positive even from thee neegative things.Think what worst would have happened. if. your girlfriend havnt left you
@Anonymous The only problem is that without him I'm nobody and worth nothing, this damn thing. Hocd Destroy
@Anonymous The strange thing is that I never feel OCD in the evening. I feel completely normal in the evening. It's like the old me, the real me, comes back in the evening.
I can't live with these constant intrusive thoughts. I know they don't describe me, but I can't live with them anymore.
I've just literally lost my mind, I'm not in reality.
It's like I get my mind back every night and then my ocd mind comes back, it's all weird and scary
My OCD has been terrible the for the past two weeks. I have a fear that I will never be able to get out of the thought loop. I am hyper aware of my thoughts and it disturbs me. I haven’t been able to eat for 10 days. I force myself. I haven’t been able to sleep for more than a couple hours. Then I wake up and ruminate for a couple hours, until I’m exhausted. I’m also afraid I’ll never sleep well again. And I’m afraid I’ll never eat and enjoy my food again. I’m afraid I’ll never be able to stop thinking about this enough to enjoy my family ever again.
I’ve been dealing with ocd my whole life, and just got diagnosed about a year ago. I feel my days becoming occupied with thoughts, urges, fears and worry that completely debilitate me. It’s getting to the point where i feel like it’s taking over my life. I don’t see this getting any better, even with the therapy and medication I’m on. I’m scared my life will be like this forever, I’m tired. My brain is tired of ruminating every second of every day from the moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep. I’m not sure how much longer I can go on like this.
I dont know what to do anymore. I think Ive had the 'pure O' version of OCD for more than ten years. I feel like so much of my life has been wasted from this disease. For the longest time I just tried to ignore the intrusive thoughts, and push them off as anxiety, and basically dissociated for years of my life. Feels like Ive just been on autopilot and a shell of myself for nearly 15 years. Its actually hard to even imagine of all the experiences, emotions, connections with others, and personal growth that Ive missed out on- if I do, I think it would be too much to handle. I think Ive even forgot and dont even know at this point what it is to live a normal life and experience positive emotions. Now that I sought treatment for it specifically, it feels like it's gotten worse. Like by acknowledging that part of myself, suddenly added focus just makes it more real and in the forefront now. I wonder if I am actually going insane. Will not go into details for reassurance but the thoughts just rip my soul out. Its so difficult as well because I will get random 'clarity moments' throughout the day where I feel like Ive solved something, then get completely derailed by another OCD thought stream and forget everything. It feels like Im just on a merry-go-round of hell, not going anywhere thinking I am at times.
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