spooky artist
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Feeling much better
I realize that if you try to hold in these intrusive thoughts and feelings then it will get worse, but right now I’m not as bothered by them like I did yesterday
nae naenae nae
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That's great to hear! :)
Lit555Lit555
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For me, my OCD took it as if I had accepted this and that I wanted this, but even if I felt good, my OCD would decide not to 😂
spooky artist spooky artist
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@Lit555 Yeah ocd low key gaslights ya, just try to take deep breathes and yea just be aware of your thoughts, it’s like your brain is dumping some garbage out of your head
Lit555Lit555
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@spooky artist The problem is that I haven't been conscious for a long time.
Lit555Lit555
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@spooky artist But that's good advice, thanks.
spooky artist spooky artist
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@Lit555 Keep practicing mindfulness, it’s all about being aware of your breath and thoughts, sure your ocd might try to gaslight you but just observe those thoughts instead of interacting with them
Lit555Lit555
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@spooky artist De So it feels like I accept it and like I want to be this.
Lit555Lit555
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@spooky artist Thank you, I hope that when I'm among people, this will pass and I'll be able to look at people calmly without intrusive thoughts.
Lit555Lit555
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It feels like my brain is starting to break down.
spooky artist spooky artist
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@Lit555 I know how you feel, be patient with yourself we are all trying to recover from this
Lit555Lit555
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@spooky artist But it feels like I've been changed or I don't know, it's weird
spooky artist spooky artist
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@Lit555 Yeah I had the same thing happen to me
Lit555Lit555
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@spooky artist And the strange thing is that in the evening it all goes away completely, I don't feel hot and it's not in my head, I live as usual, but when I wake up, boom
spooky artist spooky artist
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All I know is that I just kept doing mindfulness and it slowly became less and less, it’s pretty much not exactly how you get rid of intrusive. Thought it’s just how you deal with it.
Lit555Lit555
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In the evening the effect was completely gone but now that I woke up, boom it came back
Lit555Lit555
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It's like OCD wants to change me and my way of thinking and it's really scary.
Lit555Lit555
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Yes, you're right and it's really much better and the strange thing is that when it goes away another ocd thought comes but when another ocd thought comes this one that I have now completely goes away and literally disappears and I live as I am I've lived this far, but it's still better now, so I do what you advised, when an intrusive thought comes, I don't pay attention to it and I don't respond, and it's really much better.
Lit555Lit555
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It almost feels like I've been changed and there's a different brain in my head.
spooky artist spooky artist
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Yeah I know that feeling but I don’t know what exactly it is
Lit555Lit555
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When I struggled with intrusive thoughts a long time ago, I overcame them in about a couple of weeks.But now I'm living as straight as ever, back in December I saw a gay guy on TikTok, I had an intrusive thought and boom Since then I've been arguing with myself for 0 24 hours and it's gotten worse and my brain literally automatically thinks that I am.
Lit555Lit555
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It used to happen like this and now I'm still straight, there was nothing gay about me, I never saw a gay person, I got an intrusive thought and boom, I was fighting with myself.The more intrusive thoughts I had, the worse it got.Then I got the one I thought was handsome, etc., and then it automatically says, "I need my brain, I want it."And it's fucking annoying.
spooky artist spooky artist
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@Lit555 Yeah your ocd want you to react to those thoughts, but try to focus on your breath, if your mind wonders that’s okay, just focus on your breathing, you are not your thoughts
Lit555Lit555
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@spooky artist Thank you brother
Lit555Lit555
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@Lit555 I feel much better, almost fine, but it's still inside me and it's weird and when I see someone who's handsome, it's still weird for you.
Lit555Lit555
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@spooky artist The weird thing is that I'm not sick anymore, I feel good and it doesn't affect me. It's just weird because I've been fighting with myself for so long that I still have all this inside me.
Lit555Lit555
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I'm better now, but I'm still quite affected by this whole thing.
Lit555Lit555
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I think it would be better if I moved out of the house.
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