feema
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I need help please or i would die
Is there anyone who is struggling with sexual orientation ocd quickly reply and help me ?
ocd1101ocd1101
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Yes
feemafeema
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I have severe ocd from past almost a year and it is still undiagnosed but when i got extremely anxious and started questioning my relegion and all that i came across philosophies and what not i was extremely exhausted to the point i thought are these feelings even real will i feel sad if something happens to.my family member and i got scared i started searching online youtube videos and i came to know that these were the symptoms of ocd as i had magical thinking ocd and health ocd before in my childhood as well but i didt know that it was ocd. In short my ocd changes themes deliberately i guess before this sexual orientation ocd i was dealing with severe seeveree existential ocd where i my ocd wanted to make me belive i was trap or i was in a stimulation once i stop giving a shit about it i thought i was free but my ocd latched itself onto my sexuality . Yesterday i was travelling and.i was feeling anxious as well and how i cop with my anxitey is i think about romantic stuff im into so i was thinking about it and it wasnt helping me as much so alot of doubts started to come in my mind like what if im not attracted to anybody like to no one then whats my purpose what am i even doing here in this world and then it started i started having doubts that what if i am attracted to female which i am not i mean i never felt any romantic or emotional relation to any woman and that thought went away and new came and it said im not attracted to anybody im just alone and i was distressed and now the second thought is repeating again and again and now brain is giving me evidences from my past experiences like one time i watched female porn and it says i am attracted to them (even tho my brain also used to give me sexual fantisies about animals and older men ) but my brian just wont understand i m extremely stressed to the point i am exhausted what should i do? .
Ms.shelovesfrogsMs.shelovesf...
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I also have so-ocd and it's like this and it's torture (I don't know what to say but I guess I'm commenting to let you know you're not alone)
feemafeema
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@Ms.shelovesfrogs Yeah im not alone but im scared
feemafeema
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@Ms.shelovesfrogs Does your mind gives you proofs and evidences like that !
Ms.shelovesfrogsMs.shelovesf...
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@feema Heck yes it does 😭 today morning I decided to stop feeding/fueling my compulsions and my mind is currently doing tricks and my anxiety level is like 📈
feemafeema
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@Ms.shelovesfrogs What kind of evidences
feemafeema
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@feema Mine were i used to watch female porn when i was a teenager
feemafeema
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@feema But i also used to have sexual thoughts about animal and older men what does that all mean
Ms.shelovesfrogsMs.shelovesf...
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@feema Mine is basically making any neutral situation that happened and making it seem like a proof.
feemafeema
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@Ms.shelovesfrogs Like what can you please share
Ms.shelovesfrogsMs.shelovesf...
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@Ms.shelovesfrogs It's annoying because I've never been sexually attracted to girls, I'm still not sexually attracted to them but my brain keeps on with the intrusive thoughts and compulsions ..it literally messing with me and making me think physical attraction is sexual attraction but it's not and I'm not in denial, I just don't desire girls but my brain won't let me rest
Ms.shelovesfrogsMs.shelovesf...
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Almost as if my brain is being hypervigilant around them looking for signs
feemafeema
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I im feeling scared asf my anxitey is at its peak and im shivering
Ms.shelovesfrogsMs.shelovesf...
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Sorry about that(experienced this about two hours ago)
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