Username: Mika05

Date posted: 29d ago

Worried about not being anxious?

These past few days I was fine. Minimal intrusive thoughts ,no anxiety etc(to add I'm on medication so maybe it's starting to work although it barely is 2 weeks) and today I got a sudden wave of anxiety and it started latching on some thoughts like" what if I'm in denial and I wanna break up with my bf? And what if erp doesn't work for me because I actually wanna break up with my bf?" But they didn't really stay long usually those thoughts would make me spiral for days or so, now they lasted for some hours. And now I'm trying to trigger myself into being anxious again because if I don't it means I don't have ocd and if I don't have ocd it means I don't love my bf and if I don't love my bf it means I have to break up. Idk if it makes sense but the lack of anxiety makes me wonder if I actually have ocd or not.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 29d ago

This is not abnormal for OCD. Honestly, I think it's still very clearly OCD. You're not obsessing about the specific thought, now you're obsessing about what it means that your not having it. OCD can get better and worse. Part of it is biological. Things change in our bodies and the extent to which an obsession bothers us can change. Also, medications affect people differently. Depending on the medication, 2 weeks is possible.

Username: Mika05Mika05

Date posted: 29d ago

I'm on fluvoxamine

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 29d ago

OCD likes to attack what you truly value & make you believe you want to diminish it. It has attacked my morality’s & values & even common sense I’ve known my entire life. I ask myself what do I truly believe? Once I know what I truly want, I accept my intrusive thoughts & leave it up to uncertainty. “I may or may not want to break up with my boyfriend” “I definitely want to break up with my boyfriend that’d be my absolute DREAM come true!!” Side note; I haven’t gotten anxious in about 6 months, but that’s actually a really good thing. Just because you aren’t anxious does not mean that you are serving your OCD’s desires, it means you’re getting better! Sorry this was all the follow up to my question.

Username: Mika05Mika05

Date posted: 29d ago

Don't worry although your question confused me abit. But thank you very much!!

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 29d ago

@Anonymous I went to com care the other day and she told me that if I started having anxiety about not getting anxiety, that that is a common thing that some people go through, please the medicine and it takes time and continue to lean into uncertainty. OCD is urgent and wants an answer right now. The best way to conquer OCD uncertainty differently than fear.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 29d ago

@Anonymous Sorry! I use speak text so it made that sound un-grammary:)

Username: Mika05Mika05

Date posted: 29d ago

@Anonymous Hahaha no problem. The thing is all the time I'm like okay now it feels different(the no anxiety) but it never ends up being different and I always end up in a spiral except today I didn't really spiral and I'm now wondering why.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 29d ago

@Mika05 Girl Nathan Peterson on youtube who is an OCD/ anxiety specialist has saved my life. I found a video for you. It’s called “Help! My Intrusive thoughts aren’t causing me anxiety” Watch it!! https://youtu.be/7kOFJ0ZAVFo?feature=shared

Username: Mika05Mika05

Date posted: 29d ago

@Anonymous Thank you very much! I watched it and it's so relatable. Everyone talks about anxiety etc but now I don't have it and I'm like hold up what's going on and I just can't stop thinking about why I'm not anxious

Username: Mika05Mika05

Date posted: 19d ago

Apparently it was the Ashwagandha I was taking that lowered the cortisol in my brain but now it isn't working anymore lol

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 29d ago

Do you love your boyfriend so much & would be absolutely ill & sad if you guys broke up?

Username: Mika05Mika05

Date posted: 29d ago

Well I'm questioning that myself lol. I have rocd. You're technically repeating what my head says in order to make me anxious lol

Username: 𝐩𝐮𝐦𝐩𝐤𝐢𝐧🤍🦇🎃

Date posted: 24w ago

NEW RELATIONSHIP OCD

I just started dating this guy not too many months ago. he is everything i ever wanted and he treats me right. but now my OCD intrusive thoughts are creeping back in. ones like “do i love him/like him” and like “i have to tell him im having these horrible OCD thoughts or we will never know how i truly feel.” but i know i love/like him. And sometimes I’ll be having a good day and then BAM, the thoughts smack me in the face and i get stuck in an anxious loop and it ruins my mood. how can i break this compulsion without feeling so anxious and do i tell him i’m having these thoughts to relieve the anxiety?

Username: Asiul79

Date posted: 23w ago

Triggered by feeling better?

Hello everyone. So, basically every time I feel any kind of peace/pleasure (simple ones, like hmm today I’m enjoying a song, I felt good with my sleep, etc) my ocd tries to convince me something is wrong and then I get anxious because I was feeling good. It’s so messed up. Anyone been through this?

Username: anonymous_2103

Date posted: 22w ago

am i the only one?

recently my intrusive thoughts haven’t been bothering me much, unless i’m busy doing nothing. i suffer from SO-OCD. whenever i think yes, these thoughts don’t bother me anymore, i’m doing great, i then work myself up like ‘well your thoughts are obviously true then otherwise they would make you upset and uncomfortable’. when i get the thoughts they do still make me feel this way but also not as strong. I do then panic and think i’m something i’m not, despite knowing the truth. also anyone know why they get worse when i’m bored or not doing anything? 😢

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