repost. help. guilt

I tried helping someone on here. I don’t know what to do. They seem to experience a lot of trauma and ptsd and have pocd and im trying to offer advice but also not focusing on reassuring and they seem to be struggling and was posting a lot. But then they ended up saying they were a pred and they were sorry and need to unal1ve. I ended up feeling anxious and uncomfy and didn’t respond but I didn’t judge I just felt a lot of pressure and figured them saying this was them having a bad ocd episode. They ended up replying more asking if im mad and sorry if they scared me. I just kept saying the same things, recommending therapy and there’s a diff between actually wanting and enjoying these things and then being scared of all of this and experiencing extreme distress and repetitiveness basically. I just feel so much pressure. I felt sympathy and tried to help and now im worried and scared. I blocked them due to this but now I feel even worse. I am sortve breaking into hives and itchy… from anxiety im sure.

nae nae

Date posted: 29w

I blocked an account earlier today, too. It might've been the same one😭 This exact situation happened to me with another account a while ago, but it's okay if you need to end the conversation or block them. They're not your responsibility, but I understand the pressure you're feeling. You offered all the advice you could. Now it's up to them to decide what to do with it. If they keep posting, they're likely searching for reassurance, and the best thing we can do for them is let them sit with the uncertainty they're experiencing. :(

dee012

Date posted: 29w

@nae nae Was it the two accounts consistently posting about POCD? I just felt so pressured and I feel so bad for blocking both of their accounts. It just became stressful and started questioning myself and freaking out. I hope they don’t think I think they are a p, but I don’t know. I did what I could. It’s not my responsibility I know. I really wish them the best. Thank you for your comment nae! They are always appreciated .

nae nae

Date posted: 29w

@dee012 Yes, I think it was those accounts! But, I hope you feel better soon. :)

dee012

Date posted: 29w

@nae nae Thank you!

TapDrumRoll

Date posted: 29w

You did the right things. Give help and blocking if it caused undue stress. You are good to yourself and have your own back. ❤️

dee012

Date posted: 29w

@TapDrumRoll Thank you!

dee012

Date posted: 29w

They also said they freaked out and said that bc I said something that worried them and they got scared they lost someone who was supporting them. I am a little worried. I don’t know what to do they seem like they were actually struggling but I remember old posts of a different user saying that a user on two accounts was saying actual pdo stuff now im worried im a pdo enabler….

Bandleton

Date posted: 29w

You're not boo lol

dee012

Date posted: 29w

@Bandleton I’m a little confused by this comment sorry

Mitu_001

Date posted: 24w

I know I seek reassurance.But I really dont know what to do right now.I keep thinking about how I didnt help someone who was in a terrible situation a long time ago.They were a kid :( .Since then I keep thinking about what happened and how I didnt help.And I started to have intrusive thoughts ..about what happened..and other terrible themes.And I am really scared.I realised I keep thinking because I cant belive how difficult it was for them and how I could have helped and I didnt.I talked to a psychologist and they told me I didnt know how to deal with such a situation but I still blame myself.Sometimes I feel like they need help now, l but it was years ago.I stopped ruminating because it wont help anyone but I still have intrusive thoughts.I want to help now but I dont know if I can .I want to aplogise and make sure they are ok but I dont want to makw them remember.And I dont want to do that just because of guilt..I want to actually help.I feel like I did an unforgivable mistake..+ the terrible thoughts I have .Idk if I can ever share them with someone..ever..I feel like I am a dangerous person because I didnt help+ because of my intrusive thoughts.I really doubt myself..and feel like I shouldnt be trusted.Thank you if you have read all of this

Uhhhh15

Date posted: 20w

I feel gross

I shouldn’t have done this (trigger trigger trigger!!) So about a month ago..maybe I watched this video (as a compulsion to prove to myself) The video was called “interview with a p3d0” And basically it was what it says, I watched or more like listened to half of it…after I was disgusted by the person, but now all I can think of is every little thing I do, I feel as if tho I’m monitoring every thought/moment and feeling I have it’s torturous and I hate it..I feel disgusting, the person in the video has empathy and sympathy and had those feelings yk, I can’t explain it you’d have to watch the video yourself but please don’t it will ruin your journey…I feel more hopeless then before, my OCD is telling me so many things trying to convince me things that Ik aren’t true, I’m just really scared I don’t want to be that person I want to be a good cousin and person to my family, I’m sick of my head and myself, I’m so tired that sometimes I can’t even think straight, my head is always in pain and idek how to help myself..compulsions have been becoming more and more exhausting… I need advice or even someone to relate to, I understand I shouldn’t have done what I did but idk how to forget it.. I had made this post already but when someone replied I couldn’t see it for some reason so I’m uploading it again

Mitu_001

Date posted: 16w

Tw: trauma

Can someone talk with me? I know I posted a lot about this and I want to stop.I know only a therapist will tell me what to do..But please..can someone give me some advice? I am scared I did something horrible.I didnt help a kid 3 years ago.I feel like I left them in danger.I am so sorry.The worst is I didnt helped in all these years.I want to tell the kid I am sorry but I dont want to make them remember.I got terrible thoughts and I still have them and I feel like I betrayed them and still betray them.Bcs I didnt help and bcs of the thoughts.I dont know but I think about what happened.and how terrible it was..especially because they told me and I didnt help.I dont know why I think that but I feel like a monster.I met with them today and with their parents (which I feel like I betrayed them too) and I talked with them.but i was very anxious and I am scared their parents judge me .I want to help now..but idk how.Is it too late? I am scared I want to help just because I feel guilty.I want to live in the present and do something now but my mind makes me think of the past..Any advice? Thank you

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