Don’t know what this is?

I’ve had OCD, never saw a doctor but I’m pretty sure for over 59 years. When I was young, it was numbers, doing things a certain amount of times ect. As I got older, it was having to hear things more than once, or rereading to make sure I knew what I read. When we had kids, it was the fear of bad things happening, still as a parent, at age 62, two military sons, great wife, I still Do!! I have the fear of death, what happens ect, as I’d hate to this life on earth as it…now, I always loved music, but now I put rhyme words to songs, started out fooling around, now can be stupid things saying go myself?? I can hear or see a word, and my mind continues on, thinking all weird things, lol, I don’t get it? Any info out there from anyone maybe reading this?

MichelleV

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 46w

The NOCD website has great articles, try looking there!

Boss34

Date posted: 46w

@MichelleV Will do, thank you

Cayla Davis

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 46w

Hi, The numbers and having to hear things more than once or rereading to make sure you know what you read is definitely an OCD compulsion. When you are doing these things, I would recommend stopping yourself, it is difficult but it will come more naturally over time, and I would also highly recommend getting a therapist from NOCD. I have the same fears-- intrusive thoughts, and my NOCD therapist saved my life. I wasn't able to function until I saw her. ERP-- exposure response prevention therapy is the key to managing OCD. It sounds like you have harm OCD. Just know these are just thoughts and aren't real. One technique I learned to manage mine is saying "maybe, maybe not" to the intrusive thoughts and not giving into them emotionally because that can teach your brain that these thoughts need to be worried about. I hope that helps! You can do this!! :)

Boss34

Date posted: 46w

@Hydrangea0601 Harm OCD, no, never would hurt myself nor anyone else, I would die to help Others! I think this garbage all around me, me getting older, things I r gone thru, just hurt my mind?? Thanks for getting back

Cayla Davis

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 46w

Harm OCD isn't just about harming others or yourself, mine started with the extreme fear of something something bad happening to my loved ones- my kids and my husband. Themes can change as well as OCD goes untreated. It's called ruminating. I conquered my OCD, but continue to see my therapist for ERP. I hope that helps. OCD is scary, but it's just our brains overdoing it's "protection" of us.

Boss34

Date posted: 46w

@Hydrangea0601 Ok I didn’t know, but yes, I’m scared of harm to my wife and kids, and both sons military, went thru a lot, but still scared. Like I just read about heart disease, now petrified it’ll happen, scared to think ect

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Date posted: 46w

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Boss34

Date posted: 46w

@Anonymous Lol sorry, I didn’t notice the typos… I used to change words to music, my kids would laugh, now I can put stupid words, or even words about death to music? I know it’s stupid, but it bothers me!! Sometimes, I see words, they can make me think something stupid, and I think it all revolves around my own fears? Like finally, we have a cold winter here, ponds frozen nice, my kids ice fish, I know they know the outdoors, but still scared they’re out there, it’s almost like I’m not there with them, what can happen, and I got them into it?? With all the bad in society, it’s common place now, bad news, and I feel like I wouldn’t care what happens, but I know it’s just my mind putting that thought there!!

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