Having a very very difficult time

I’m feeling so scared that I can’t sleep. My OCD symptoms are showing up all at once. I got bit by a horse at a ranch 22 years ago and at that time I wasn’t knowledgeable about rabies so I didn’t get any vaccines. Once I realized, I tried to get it but every doctor kept saying no and that it won’t show up this late. I looked up cases where a guy got it 25 years after being bitten. You are safe to take the vaccine until symptoms show up. I keep getting random sharp pains or itching on my knee (where I got bit) and it comes and goes and it’s been a week of it and I am scared the symptoms started and it is now too late to get the vaccine now. Rabies is one of the worst ways to die so I just want to cry. I am so mad at every doctor that didn’t want to give me. Like it wouldn’t even hurt me if I didn’t get infected, I can take it for precautions like everyone else that got bitten. The only thing that’s keeping me from really freaking out is that once symptoms start, you die within 7 to 10 days and it’s been past that. I don’t know if this is even OCD or if anyone else gone through this or something similar. I feel so alone.

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

Oh my gosh rabies is a HUGE ocd theme of mine. For the past few years we get bats in our HOUSE and I can’t tell you how much this has scared me. I had to work thru a lot. Could you call your local health department? I had to call and talk to their rabies specialist and she was so good. Reassurance sometimes is necessary before you can move on with ERP. I have also googled SO much with rabies and I regret it because I know too much now lol. But I will say that the lady I spoke with told me 1. Rabies is so rare. 2. They don’t want to just give the shot to anyone because there are risks to the shots so if they don’t think it’s necessary then you won’t need it. 3. Rabies shows up almost always within a few days/weeks that one story you read online never ever happens. I’m so sorry you are going thru this. It seriously has kept me up at night dealing with the fear of rabies. And everyone I told would laugh at me and didn’t understand why this is such a real fear.

Emma34

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous I’m so sorry everyone dismissed your fear, it is a real fear and it is so scary. I also made the mistake of doing research about it and even seen a patient with it which you would think would be great ERP but unfortunately it did the opposite and made the obsessions worse and I felt really bad for the person suffering and it is true suffering, like not a good way to go out at all. It haunts me till this day. I just want them to give me the vaccine so I can relax and not have this pop up years later. I think that is a good idea to call the rabies specialist, I didn’t even think about it. And also with the bats, I can’t even imagine how scary that must be. I am terrified of bats due to rabies. I hope you can somehow batproof your house so you don’t have to constantly worry.

Anonymous

Date posted: 8d

@Anonymous Hey I am having this fear right now did u ever get over it, or do u ever get the vaccines for it??

Anonymous

Date posted: 14h

@Anonymous So is it false that rabies symptoms appear within months to years? This has been freaking me OUTTT

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