- Date posted
- 28w
I really need help
This isn’t about ocd well it kinda is because I think my ocd is starting to make me stress and burn out a lot and I don’t know what to do anymore it’s like a constant cycle of torture and I really thought I was getting better. My household area causes me to stress a lot and just me thinking about it is getting me mad at my mom why ? It’s because she’s the main reason she has four people in our house move in because they were struggling I know it sounds selfish but we are already struggling so putting people who we hardly know in the house doesn’t make it any better she’s put my brother girlfriend now ex because they broke up while staying here my mom is letting her live with us including my brother who doesn’t even like to work and creates drama due to his own issues , my brother gf who we hardly know and I really think she lies a lot about things to get attention which really pisses me off sometimes , she’s put my nieces deadbeat mother aka her sister in here WHY? I don’t know she chose a man over her children the fourth person is my one year old niece that screams all the time and messes with my rabbit and that stresses me out because my rabbit lives in the living room ☹️ and they sleep in there like literally all four of them and it’s so annoying because why do I have to accept people to live with me that I barley know just because I’m 17 like I know they need help but I feel like it’s all too much man like it’s helped with my harm intrusive thoughts because my father which I don’t even like calling him that tried to take my mom out of this earth by stabbing her last year and he’s always fighting with her because he thinks she’s cheating which isn’t the case at all he’s just on drugs which makes him think that and she didn’t kick him out the house for even a long time I think he came back in like a month of him stabbing her which makes me have intrusive thoughts on him always harming her when I have my music to loud or when my tv is too loud so I’m literally always listening to make sure that isn’t happening it’s caused me so much stress this year he also punched me and she only kicked him out for two or three days I think and got mad at me when I wanted to file a police report she’s abusive too by the way and when I’m going through it the adults in the house turn a blind eye so my sympathy for some of them isn’t really there