Cheating

@Anonymous But I planned it and deliberately didn’t move out of the way cuz I wanted to be grazed by her

@Giselleeee I didn’t want anything else just the graze

@Giselleeee I’m scared that wanting the graze means I wanted her to touch me sexual, that me wanting herto graze me was to fulfill sexual desires

@Giselleeee Oh, well ask yourself. Was it for sexual desire or did you just want to feel someone's touch.

@Anonymous I’m pretty sure sexual desire 🥺

@Giselleeee It’s just I wasn’t aware of the fact that it could be looked at like that, I just knew I wanted to experience being grazed by her. Like the fact that I wanted to be grazed by her for sexual desire only appeared in hindsight after more reflection…I’m not sure I fully realized it in the moment

@Giselleeee So you and this person both looked at each other?

@Anonymous No she was just walking by trying to get through

@Anonymous Exactly

@Giselleeee Does your partner know that you did this?

@Anonymous Yes I told him. He said it’s fine

@Giselleeee Oh ok, I would suggest we try not to act on those intrusive thoughts in the future and instead let them be thoughts and try to distract yourself so you don't let those intrusive thoughts become intrusive actions.

@Anonymous Have you had intrusive thoughts like this or others, frequently?

@Anonymous No like I don’t know how to explain it. I am so scared of cheating and losing my partner. But I have these moments like this where I think I did cheat or didn’t care in the moment and still wanted to cheat

@Giselleeee Well do you know the difference between what's cheating and not cheating? Like could you say if I do this its cheating or I did this but that's not cheating? Because there is a line between cheating and not cheating. And I think if you have a therapist you should ask them about what falls on what side of the line and what doesn't.

@Anonymous When you say you don't care and wanted to cheat was it you who wanted to cheat or were you being tempted to cheat by something or someone?

@Anonymous Me who Wanted to cheat. And by cheat I mean smile at a stranger, be bumped into or grazed by somone, etc. not overt actions

@Giselleeee Smiling at people isn't cheating, we were put on this earth to love each other and bring happiness to others. Smiling at someone just makes their day. You bumping into someone is just wanting physical touch is what it sounds like to me. I don't want to assume anything but do you get hugs from people or physical touch from people frequently.

@Anonymous Talk with your partner about these feelings of concerns because I sure he will be more than happy to help you through these thoughts and feelings.