I am at a point in my life where I sincerely have all the proof that I will never be able to fall in love with a man in my life, just because of hocd

You cannot change what or who you are attracted to, that is the fundamental make up of who you are as a human being, you cannot just switch it off...... there is nothing wrong in finding someone attractive even if they are the opposite sex, it doesn't mean you will have a relationship with them or that you are gay....as we go through our lives we experience many different emotions....it's part of who we are as human beings.... don't be so hard on yourself.

Maybe now you are at a point we're it's time to fight back....

Why don't you write a list, of all the things you wish for if you didn't suffer OCD, and another list containing all the things OCD stops you from doing....and then work towards removing just one compulsion or reassurance behavior a week, gradually retraining your brain not to react

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Thanks you too

Me too

Your welcome...

Me too. I so afraid that i'll find out that ive been lyibg to myself thr whole time. Ik it's not true deep deep down. But i dont believe it. Im accepting/open towards lgbt but thats not the life i want to live. I have always wanted a husband. Always found girls attractive, sexy etc but never in a I want a relationship. Now HOCD is reversing everything to my being apart of that community. Idk what to believe anymore. I'd rather be alone for the rest of my life than be in a relationship with a woman. I just cant do it, and i'm sad and scared that i'll have to accept that I am gay and have to be with girls or that i am gay and going to be alone. I just dont know anymore..... ok rant over. Sorry guys

@goyateI Thanks, it's just so hard trying to be normal. But feling like im hiding somethi g (sexuakity). Always reminding myself it's ok to find people of the same sex attractice. But how is that possible w/o being lgbt. I cant even sit or dress w/o analyzing myself for gayness sometimes.

I don't know your age....but if you are a teenager who experience many emotions throughout our years, it's all part of life.....enjoy the journey you will only make this journey once....what is normal....no one is "normal"....you are you, just as I am me.... don't be so hard on yourself friend

Oh and it's perfectly normal to find some attractive from the same sex....it doesn't mean you are gay or anything else....it's just a feeling that you are experiencing....when I was younger I had a lot of gay friends and some were very attractive....but they were friends only...

You are still young and learning about yourself.....many things don't work out in life, that's because something better will enter your life one day...

Enjoy learning about yourself....it's surprising what comes into our lives when we stop searching...

It's great that you have dreams and aspirations.... don't be so hard on yourself....you should always learn to walk first before trying to run......if you were gay you wouldn't question it and you would want a husband ..... life is a marathon not a Sprint....you have many wonderful things to experience as each year passes...

Your welcome....I have the OCD that likes things to be straight and neat and tidy....so sometimes I turn a picture on the wall off centre and sit and look at it until my anxiety drops....hey you can always message on here if your struggling.... don't think your alone....sharing a problem helps see it from a different angle....have a good day