This is why I feel scared

So if you don’t know my account basically my ocd centres around s3xual obsessions and I’ve been struggling so bad for about 2 months. I have just been diagnosed with extreme ocd and I wanna say why I’m so scared. 1. What if i actually like the thoughts and I’m denial So basically on this fear I can explain, I used to always get thoughts like these when I was younger and they didn’t bother me at all I might of actually enjoyed them but now cuz it’s about a family member I started to ruminate and feel sick and scared and have bad thoughts, so like what if I actually do like them and I’m lying to myself 2. What if I don’t get better I’m so scared that I might not get better and just hate this feeling so much 3 false arousel/ attraction These are horrible and make me think more about what if I like the thoughts I’m stressed so much and I just hate this. Can someone reply please🙏

☆MEL☆

Date posted: 27w

Okay SO 1: if you were endenial it would not scare you. So it IS your OCD please hear me when I say that 2:YOU WILL GET BETTERA, EVEN IF YOU HAVE UP AND DOWNS LIKE ME YOU EILL GET BETTER BRO JESUS LOVES YOU AND HELPS YOU GET THROUGH IT!! 3:false arousal actually sucks so bad I hate it sm it is the grossest feeling Again this is all your OCD I promise 🫶🏻

tayanominous

Date posted: 27w

@☆MEL☆ Thank you for your kindness I know I shouldn’t be seeking reassurance I just get so scared thanks for replying I hope your doing well too🙂

☆MEL☆

Date posted: 27w

@tayanominous Bro np at all you have no clue how much I needed reassurance esp at my worst 🤍🤍🤍

MichelleV

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 27w

Take a deep breath ❤️ I have also had intrusive sexual thoughts about family members. When this first came up for me (last summer), I absolutely panicked and freaked out. So I can sympathize with what you say here. I also want you to know that your what if questions are your OCD talking. And I understand why you’re scared, I really do. But this is 100% treatable. There is so much hope for you. Please be gentle with yourself. Please understand that mental illness is hard to live with and you deserve grace and self compassion. Do you have a support system?

tayanominous

Date posted: 27w

@MichelleV Yes I have a therapist and a doctor and meds but even though i know i have OCD it just feels too real and I’m so scared I hate this but thank you so much for your kindness and for commenting I will try and be calm and I hope your doing well too🙂

MichelleV

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 27w

@tayanominous This is going to sound bizarre, and this took me a long time to do, but learning to laugh at your OCD can be helpful. I will say “you know what OCD? It would be so funny if this family member does whatever you’re coming up with. I will laugh and laugh. How silly.” Or, “maybe I do want this. Huh. Cool.” Non engagement responses can really help pump the brakes on a spiral. If it feels urgent or real, it’s probably just OCD. Hang in there!

tayanominous

Date posted: 27w

@MichelleV Hey thanks so much for your comment I appreciate it so much but unfortunately I’ve tried to laugh it just doesn’t seem to work maybe it could work when I have a panic attack but it doesn’t really stick for me thanks so much though

☆MEL☆

Date posted: 27w

Please excuse my bad typing I'm sorry lol

tayanominous

Date posted: 25w

Is this still ocd or am I a bad person

TW!! I’m not doing well i dont know what’s real and what’s not so basically i get really really bad disturbing sexual thoughts abt family unfortunately and it feels so real and OCD makes me think I want or like the thoughts and sometimes family members touch me which sounds weird but I mean like on my arms and stuff I start laughing and smiling and I get rlly frustrated like I literally start to laugh and smile and grin and stuff and it makes me think i want these thought even more anyways so I purposely started to think of harm OCD intrusive thoughts to try and counter the ones I’m dealing with which ik it sounds like a compulsion but at least it’s working a bit and so I’m worried I don’t feel disturbed by these thoughts and I have no anxiety around them and I want to go to a mental ward but “my condition isint serious enough ” aghhhh

tayanominous

Date posted: 25w

Sexual OCD It’s getting worse

tayanominous

Date posted: 24w

I’m scared does anyone else have these thoughts?

TW!!!! TW! Not talking abt SOCD in talking abt those really gross intrusive thoughts about sexual things with family ,friends, animals, random people. Mine is with family specifically my mom and I am so scared and my OCD is saying I actually want these thoughts to happen irl. I’m scared and these thoughts aren’t just the average incest thoughts there are sooo messed up it crazy, a few weeks ago I gas a thought that I was pregnant with that family member I mentioned before and I know ewwwwww wtf it’s sooo bad and I’m scared ppl will judge me for it in here or my therapist I’m so scared and it keeps adding to this thought like what it would be like if that were true and it’s sounds so crazy and gross and f****d up I feel so guilty and scared and I don’t wanna do ERP cuz I’m scared worse thoughts will come and your probably think well I can’t get worse then that but unfortunately it probably could anyways I’m sorry for ranting and pls pls reply cuz I feel rlly alone cuz I feel like no one gets THESE thoughts aghhh 😖

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