- Date posted
- 32w
Life feels kinda empty
PLEASE READ THIS. My bestfriend moved away to a different city to go to another school and we were in a friend group of 8 people. The relationships between me and the others in the friendgroup was complicated but i didnt like so many of them because i felt a bit left out. When we started high school all the 7 of us is now in the same class. On the school my bestfriend is going to now, someone k… themself and she was sad for it (she wasnt friends with him but all in their school is somehow close cause they live in a boat). On a halloweenparty w my friends i was a bit sad cause i felt a bit lonely. I texted my bff and told her that im tired of them being in that way (which we have talked about before). Than she replied by writing something like «its been a situation on my boat where someone took their own life, (dont remember exactly what else but she ended with writing this) dont do something stupid. (Dont kys) that sentence completely broke my heart cause that has never ever been a thought that has even crossed my mind, ive always loved life and i love my family, and the somehow complication w my friends has never bothered my that much. But since that message i have felt depressed and scared and my life suddenly felt so pointless. Im so mad that she is so fckin stupid and writes something fckd up like that. I hate her. And i know that its obviously becasue of what happend at her school. How the f do i get over this? Its like i suddenly dont like living anymore. How do i ever enjoy beeing alive again? Please come with something that actually can help me and not make me more depressed. Also does my ocd has any fault of me not getting over it?