I constantly think that if I do something wrong or choose the wrong thing that someone I love will be in a horrible accident or die. The wrong fork, the wrong sock. It makes me so angry.
I understand your anger. My OCD felt paralyzing for so long. Feeling hyper responsible for others is also very draining and tough to work on. Do you practice self care to help when things are hard?
That is so scary and frustrating. OCD is a straight up bully sometimes. and it's a liar!
Hey there, this can feel like such a tricky situation to be in. Here is an article that might help you feel like you have a little direction on how to push back against this, https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/what-is-magical-thinking-ocd
Your anger is understandable as these thoughts can trigger emotions from fear to rage. If you are practicing ERP to manage these thoughts, have patience with the process. I saw that response post offered an article on magical thinking. What were your thoughts on this? Please reach out to us anytime .... treatmyocd.com if you are not already connected to treatment.
Intrusive thoughts are unwanted and cause stress which mine do but also when I’m mad I get this rage feeling and say I wanna stab someone like that feels like a. Want not intrusive why am I saying “ I wanna “ :(
I have intrusive thoughts about God. But sometimes it seems like I do think them myself. I don't agree with them. But it's like I get too exhausted to fight anymore, or when my mind calms down, I don't feel right without the thoughts so I think them myself and idk why. I'm pretty sure I'm going to hell.
Im sorry I have to come on here and ask for advice once again, but as some people on here know I have been suffering with ocd since I was around the age of ten, which only got worse as my beautiful children came along. or nearly 60 years Ive had every type of ocd there is, they always come down to the same thing , not wanting to ever harm the people I love more than anything. I had got on top of this and was managing well, I know I would never harm anyone I love ever and would never ever want to, no more of the hypothetical scenarios for reassurance either , but its like every time I try to stop the mental compulsions intrusive thoughts come back after a few days, As I was in between going to sleep and was half awake the horrible words ' hope ***** dies I cannot even write the name down who it was about. I do not know where it came from but I am constantly getting upset about this as it was about someone I would give up my life for. I think you can probably guess what I mean without me having to say it. I do read a lot of posts and ocd podcasts and once read someones story wher they used to wish bad things and I have never been able to stop worrying in case something like that happened to me . Could this be what it was that has caused it ? I think Ive also still held onto something from when I was a child when I used to worry that thinking something too much could make it happen,, Please, please give me some addvice and thank you,,, sorry for the long post.
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