Anyone up to talk ? Not about anything specific ❤️

@moon027097 We can talk on here I don’t mind :)

@Blueberrycows What would you like to talk about?

@NickDeLeo Hey friend .. welcome to the party haha

Honestly, I've been struggling a lot with OCD and I can feel myself slipping into depression. But trying to remind myself of my values and how powerful false memories can be. Haven't been sleeping that great myself tbh :) but still holding on to hope though.

my favourite food is pizza, i think. i usually like most foods. favourite past time is rewatching favourite series, i do like reading but haven't been doing much of it. i don't really play too many mobiles games. I'm not a very interesting or busy person it seems💀 what's on your mind? And what do you like?

@moon027097 Right now I’m just watching full house and playing a game called treat where you can take care of actual shelter dogs and I’ve watched full house for almost like 2 months straight with the exception of golden girls or icarly here or there .. I’m not really a gamer either … I’m a huge foodie but one of my favorite foods are beef stroganoff Yummers

@moon027097 OCD sucks wouldn’t wish it on anyone .. but I can always lend an ear if you’re around on here … I’m almost always lurking in the shadows on this app

@moon027097 Well your not alone, I did slip back into depression, it’s awful

@Blueberrycows what is full house about? I've seen some people talk about it online, it seems popular. also that game sounds so sweet🥹 do you find it calming? is full house quite a long series?

@NickDeLeo im sorry about that🫂

@Blueberrycows yeah, it's honestly been abysmal lately and i think i've honestly only driven myself deeper into it bc of compulsive researching. i think i'd be doing much better now if i'd resisted in December. alas... i did make a post about it earlier, because my mind's in a pretty dark place but my mood just seems to fluctuate. also feeling really frustrated as i feel like i need the help of a specialist but don't have medical aid or funds to sustain it because it's so expensive just going for one session. Let alone getting a diagnosis, going on meds and then doing recommended therapy.

@Blueberrycows are you doing okay that? i know you can't sleep but how are you feeling mentally?

@moon027097 Hmmmm without giving too much away it’s about a man who lost his wife ( you’ll find out how in later seasons so I don’t want to spoil it ) and his wife’s brother moves in to help take care of the 3 kids … Michelle , DJ and Stephanie … and as time goes on Danny and Jesse (the step brother) invite their childhood friend Joey to move in so now they all 3 take care of the kids and as time goes on the house gets bigger and bigger …. It has 8 seasons and it’s on Hulu … I’ve watched the entire series multiple times and I fall asleep to it … I love falling asleep to predictable tv series so I don’t stay up watching them and I still have background noise … but I’ve watched them so much I’m starting to get burned out … I play the series every night …. Yes the treats game is so calming it’s kind of like monopoly you roll the dice and earn kibble so the dogs get treats sent to them at the shelter

@moon027097 Yep I’m doing good you know besides the typical OCD I’m doing good … I hope you feel better soon mentally .. you can always reach out on one of my post … like I said I’m always a comment away

@moon027097 I understand friend … well thankfully everyone on this app wants to help each other ( most of the time 🙄) you’ve got a few grumpy gusses here and there

@Blueberrycows oh wow so you say this is for actual shelter dogs? so by playing you earn them real-life treats?that's so cool. also the premise for full house sounds amusing (besides obviously the wife passing) but just the idea of 3 guys taking care of these kids and the getting fuller and fuller is amusing.

@Blueberrycows thank you, friend🫶🏽

@moon027097 Yeah it’s pretty interesting and they have a ummm sequel I guess you’d call it .. and it’s called fuller house on Netflix … I haven’t watched it because I prefer full house but you might like it

@moon027097 Yep they get real life milk bone boxes sent to their shelter to share with the other pups and if the shelter has received too many boxes they will trade them for medical supplies or dog food bags etc

@Blueberrycows that's so crazy but in a good way. i didn't even know these kinds of games existed. it's a really good cause then

@moon027097 Most definitely I agree

@NickDeLeo Kentucky … you

@Blueberrycows I’m sick of this depression and anxiety, I sleep for a few hours and wake up with heart palpitations

@NickDeLeo I’m so sorry you’re going through that … maybe try some deep breathing or maybe a therapist…. Or maybe even ask the doctor about some anxiety meds ?

@Blueberrycows Oh I’m on meds, been that way for 25 years, and I just did meditation and it only helps when I’m doing it and then bam! Right back to obsessive thinking, how you feeling?

@NickDeLeo I’m doing good thanks friend ❤️ well as good as someone can be with ocd lol … and I get the obsessive thinking … I hope things will look up for you soon enough … but don’t give up I’m rooting for you and everyone else on here

@Blueberrycows Thanks, I’m in bad shape right now and tired of this fight

@Blueberrycows Sorry I’m so negative , I just can’t talk about anything that joyful, this disease won’t let me, weird, right?

@NickDeLeo I get being tired of it bud … I have POCD so I get it and it’s okay you’re not always expected to be positive everyone is allowed to have bad days … we are human after all

@Blueberrycows I’m on 2 months of bad days in a row

@NickDeLeo Awh I’m so sorry that’s not fair for anyone … but like I told moon I’m always around and don’t mind to lend an ear … I might not get back to you super quick because this app doesn’t like to notify me when people comment 🙄 but I’ll get around to you eventually so vent away … I’m not phased or shocked by anything

@Blueberrycows Thanks for your support

@Blueberrycows (Sorry to butt in) but yeah, i honestly thought i was the only one that got really delayed notifs for this app! sometimes i'll make a post and not be active for hours and then when i come back online it says someone commented like 4 hrs ago lol

@NickDeLeo You’re more than welcome friend

@moon027097 lol I feel the same like whoops sorry … totally not ignoring you and appreciate your advice this app just doesn’t like me so I totally get it 😂🤭 and you’re not butting in and even if you did I don’t mind … this is a public platform after all

@Blueberrycows So what’s bothering you that you can’t sleep?

@NickDeLeo No idea lol just some nights I can’t sleep … nothing is bothering me necessarily… I guess I made a move a young child would lol I stayed up even after my body said it was tired and now I can’t sleep … so my body is like you’ve had your chance to sleep … now I’m keeping you awake 😂🙄🤷‍♀️🤭

@Blueberrycows Well that’s ok, better then your mind keeping you awake

@NickDeLeo Yeah I get like that some nights. As well …. So I’m over here just watching full house and asmr videos

@Blueberrycows Well I gotta go struggle through this day, please keep in touch

@Blueberrycows ohhh i get that. for some reason in the past, i'd always tell myself i couldn't go to bed before midnight because i just decided that should be my bedtime and even if i became sleepy before then as in i couldn't keep my eyes open, i'd force myself to stay awake til the 'appropriate time'. and i feel like sometimes that definitely messed with my sleep lol

@NickDeLeo i hope that things get better. i know it's been a long while, but there's still hope. sending you strength for the day ahead 🫂❤️‍🩹

@NickDeLeo I’ll keep in touch friend … you can do this I’m rooting for you … just remember you’re not your OCD you just have OCD… and I’m just a comment away

@moon027097 Haha I get that I’m like if I go to bed too early I’ll wake up too early and be tired but if I go to sleep too late then I’ll sleep all day so there no happy medium darn it

@Blueberrycows Thank you

@Blueberrycows there's no winning 😂 i haven't ever been a 'good sleeper' even as a child. but i feel like that might be OCD coming in as well lol

@moon027097 Hehe I understand ❤️ by the end of this conversation my OCD will be triggered by SOMETHING said in this conversation I don’t care what was said my OCD is like this is the perfect moment to worry and STRIKE now worry 😂🤷‍♀️

@Blueberrycows yeah OCD is enemy #1. it can warp pretty much anything you say or do, so i can relate to this 🩵

mmm this is a hard one because there are foods i don't like but im willing to eat anything especially if my mom makes it because i just feel rude lmao but i don't really like soup— I find the texture can be offensive especially if it's really chunky (sorry if this sounds gross??). i also have never eaten blue cheese because the smell alone is repulsive enough 💀

what's a food that you dislike?

@moon027097 oh i just remembered that i do not like olives at all

@moon027097 Nope nope nope nope nopity nope we can’t be friends lol 😂.. I LOVE SOUP but I can get the blu cheese thing like you might as well chew on a foot … also I CANNOT stand beets and sardines … I’m like you I will try mostly anything but beets and blu cheese … also if you put pineapple on pizza off to jail you go … or if you eat meatloaf … I promise I’m not picky ,.. most of the stuff I say I won’t eat I’ll atleast try … like I will eat meatloaf but I don’t like it … I won’t eat beets or blu cheese or sardines

@moon027097 Nope still can’t be friends I love black olives 🫒

@Blueberrycows LMAO sorry about that then😂💀 and to add fuel to the fire, i do enjoy the occasional pizza with pineapple every now and then... but i wouldn't say it's my absolute favourite. i just happens to be on some pizzas, but i don't LOVE love it. it's okay. love pizza though

@moon027097 Hehehe Awh man 😂 oh well … I went to go get my Indian food 🥘 I’m eating chicken swarma

@Blueberrycows sounds yummers (as you said before)! i hope that you enjoy it

see now peanut butter sandwich with mayo and cheese just sounds diabolical 😂😂 but if it's something that tastes good to you and brings you joy 🤗

@moon027097 Hehehe I’m a strange creature

@NickDeLeo Hidy ho friend .. I was thankyou ❤️