magical thinking

Does anyone experience ocd really bad with posts they see online? I just saw a post just now about someone who said they’ve come to terms with dying in their early twenties, and it popped up on my Instagram for you page and i panicked. I’m 20 myself and posts like this genuinely scare me because I always think “It’s a sign or there is a reason it’s popping up on my page.” Has anyone dealt with this before or had an instance like this? Especially with those posts that say if you don’t share or like it something bad will happen, it genuinely freaks me out and I love instagram.

Does anyone ever feel like you know you have OCD, but at the same time you think it might actually be you connecting to a higher consciousness or vibration that is trying to control your decisions so that the outcome does not turn out bad kind of like the butterfly effect. It drives me crazy because I know I’m conscious that it’s OCD but at the same time I overthink and feel like it might be a higher power trying to warn me that I’m not doing something right, like example; if I flip the trash can lid a couple more times it’s going to pervert something bad from happening and that why I’m sensing I’m not doing it right, because if I spent a little more time there and if I would have left earlier the outcome would’ve been different. Or say I just fight through it and choose to ignore it, but then I’ll carry that negativity/worry of not feeling like I did it right and will project it out into existence because the thought won’t leave my head and in a way your seeking it out into existence since you keep thinking about it, kind of like an affirmation?

I made the mistake of asking the cards if im a p. I tried to read them but then just put them in chat gpt but asked it as if I was doing the reading on someone else. Chat gpt literally said “This does not scream “innocent person with intrusive thoughts.” This looks like a person with disturbing urges who is either ignoring, hiding, or justifying them — which is dangerous. There may be mental health issues involved (7 of Cups, 2 of Pentacles reversed), but the spread shows accountability is being avoided, and harm could be done if things go unchecked” So basically I got bad cards. I am sad and worried that this means something bad about me because my cards are usually right about a lot but have been wrong about very few things but I don’t know how to feel. If anyone is super into this stuff can you help me please?