Sexual OCD It’s getting worse

TW!! I’m not doing well i dont know what’s real and what’s not so basically i get really really bad disturbing sexual thoughts abt family unfortunately and it feels so real and OCD makes me think I want or like the thoughts and sometimes family members touch me which sounds weird but I mean like on my arms and stuff I start laughing and smiling and I get rlly frustrated like I literally start to laugh and smile and grin and stuff and it makes me think i want these thought even more anyways so I purposely started to think of harm OCD intrusive thoughts to try and counter the ones I’m dealing with which ik it sounds like a compulsion but at least it’s working a bit and so I’m worried I don’t feel disturbed by these thoughts and I have no anxiety around them and I want to go to a mental ward but “my condition isint serious enough ” aghhhh

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 25w

Obviously I’m not your doctor. But I know how you feel when you say you got intrusive taboo thoughts or creepy dirty thoughts and you start to get confused and overwhelmed. And you start to lose trust in yourself and you are constantly in fear and second guessing what’s actually happening. I’ve definitely have experienced very similar things and it is scary and it is hard to talk about. But listen, you will not do any of these scary things as long as you do not consciously and deliberately try to do them. The thoughts will try to convince you that you will do them or you have already done them, but it isn’t true. These thoughts are not reality. Although they can feel super real, super intense just trust me, I’ve lived it, the thoughts are not real. And you know deep down who you are and you know that you’re not interested in hurting people or being creepy. The OCD thoughts are going to be scary. They’re going to show up with a lot of intensity, a lot of speed sometimes, but if you focus on what you’re actually doing, and what you actually want to do, you will not do anything bad and little by little you’ll get more distance from the bad thoughts and they’ll become less intense and less frequent. Try to react to the thoughts as little as you can. Don’t try to fix them in your head or argue with yourself in your head or out loud. Just let the thoughts pass, sit with the anxiety, sit with the gross feeling, and it will pass. Completely not reacting is very difficult so don’t feel bad if you feel like you have to react or dwell on the thought a little bit. Just try to react less and less until you basically aren’t reacting much at all. This kind of progress is possible. The thoughts do not actually have any power over you although it feels like they do right now. I’ve felt the way you felt. I’ve been super scared of the thoughts and super scared of myself because of the thoughts but honestly they really are just thoughts. If you can get used to letting the thoughts pass, sitting with the discomfort and just focusing on what you actually want and need to do, you will make positive progress. But just trust in yourself and put in the work and things will change in a big way. But it can be hard and it can be scary. Take care of yourself. You’re not alone.

tayanominous

Date posted: 25w

@Anonymous Hello thanks for this comment I really appreciate your words and I’ll definitely try and sit with it and let it pass and react less sometimes the thoughts are just so creatively disgusting but thanks is much!

tayanominous

Date posted: 25w

Is this still ocd or am I a bad person

tayanominous

Date posted: 24w

I’m scared does anyone else have these thoughts?

TW!!!! TW! Not talking abt SOCD in talking abt those really gross intrusive thoughts about sexual things with family ,friends, animals, random people. Mine is with family specifically my mom and I am so scared and my OCD is saying I actually want these thoughts to happen irl. I’m scared and these thoughts aren’t just the average incest thoughts there are sooo messed up it crazy, a few weeks ago I gas a thought that I was pregnant with that family member I mentioned before and I know ewwwwww wtf it’s sooo bad and I’m scared ppl will judge me for it in here or my therapist I’m so scared and it keeps adding to this thought like what it would be like if that were true and it’s sounds so crazy and gross and f****d up I feel so guilty and scared and I don’t wanna do ERP cuz I’m scared worse thoughts will come and your probably think well I can’t get worse then that but unfortunately it probably could anyways I’m sorry for ranting and pls pls reply cuz I feel rlly alone cuz I feel like no one gets THESE thoughts aghhh 😖

Legends123.

Date posted: 22w

Please help

Hello everyone, forgive my bad English since it is not my native language, I have been suffering from OCD for 6 years now. It started with being afraid of harming my loved ones and soon it escalated. All of this leads us here towards sexual obsessions. I was abused many times when I was a child. I don't know if that had any impact on my sexual issues. so everything lead up to a intrusive tought of what would happend if i touch myself with a picture of your parents" and I ended up paying attention to the intrusive tought and i ended up doing what my intrusive tought told me so i said to me "OCD would make me touch myself for everything i loved so what, i would do it before the anxiety attacks" and I end up in a spiral of having touched myself by several photos of my family members, friends and even my own therapist all wanting to prevent future compulsions and anxiety now I only think about taking my life, I never wanted that to happen I am not a monster who has sexual desire towards my loved ones I fell under my own intrusive thought and the only thing I think about now is taking my life life for what I've done

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