Yesterday was a very difficult day. And today I woke up as if I had never experienced OCD. I kept asking myself, do I really have it? How come I don't have a single ounce of anxiety in my body today? I don't even have the patience to think about anything else. Is it normal to have days when you just don't care? Because it's not on purpose. I wanted to think about what happened, but it's like I don't want to do it?
I think one of the most frustrating things about OCD is how sporadic it can be. Some days you can be completely fine and some are completely anxiety ridden and just horrible overall. I feel like I get more anxious about whether I really have it or not when I seem to be doing well, or seeing people online stigmatizing or generalizing OCD as one thing. OCD is so different for everyone and it can present at any given time. Thank you for sharing! You are not alone!
Yes, I feel that way too! It's so weird. Even when we're away from OCD, it's still impacting us. It's a difficult process. But we will overcome it! Thank you for your words. Thank you for all your help. I'm praying that we have the peace we deserve. 🥺🤍🙏
@Anonymous I appreciate you talking to me😭🙏I just got this app and am not able to use the therapy feature yet but being able to talk to others about this stuff is already helping so much. We got this!!
@Dfreij What kind of problem are you having? I don't know if I can help you, but if I can, I'm here! Thank you for that. I hope everything works out. The community is there to help each other. Thank you for everything!🤍
@Anonymous I think a lot of it recently has been intrusive thoughts about violent things, like in dreams sometimes or just on a regular basis. I’m in a new relationship which has been difficult as well because I keep feeling anxious that I dont actually like my partner or that I’m manipulating them because I avoid intimacy and things like that. I do like them, I just keep getting a lot of negative thoughts about the physical aspect of it and also that I might be a horrible person and manipulating them. Luckily they also have OCD so they definitely understand the struggle but it still doesn’t help with the guilt. Also another big thing was being able to eat. For several years I had a hard time consuming meat and animal products because of violent intrusive thoughts. It’s better than it was before but it still makes me nauseous sometimes seeing animal organs in dissection labs or real human cadavers for labs as well. I feel like avoiding putting myself in a situation to see dead things or stuff like that has made it easier to eat but it still comes back from time to time. And then there’s just the rituals and repetition that gets tiring too. Sorry for the dump, those were just things I thought of right off the bat, but it feels good to talk to people who understand it a bit.
@Dfreij Hey, I apologize for the delay. I was away from my cell phone these days, Im really sorry. I hope you are well. Honestly, I know it's very ineffective to say this to those of us with OCD, but you would know if you liked these thoughts. Precisely because they bother you, they don't define you. Look at how much impact OCD has on your life. You are having problems in your relationship and problems with eating. Do you think that if you enjoyed these thoughts you would have as many problems? It's so hard to see this, right? We do so many things in this life, we suffer a lot and yet OCD makes us feel so uncertain. But look at this! Don't let yourself forget that. Who you are is precisely the person who is suffering so much. Therefore, the person who thinks these thoughts is not you. It's contradictory to like something that causes us so much suffering. There's no way it can't be OCD. I know it's hard, but think about everything a little before the OCD starts to impact you so much. See how this theme didn't matter, and when it was in front of you, at no point did you like them. OCD focuses so much on the now that we forget to look back and see who we were, how things were and who we are, the way things are. I hope you are well. Therapy is very important to us! I hope you have all the support you need. I'm sorry I can't help, but there are people who can and do a lot of that for us. Know that I'm here too. Be well. I'm praying for you. 🥺🤍
@Anonymous Thank you for your support! I appreciate everything u said and it made me feel a bit at ease, I’m wishing the best for you as well!
Is it possible for OCD to start playing with your feelings? Because I'm so sure about it, but sometimes it feels like it doesn't even when I don't feel anything. And I'm feeling so empty. Like it's okay to feel when it's not. I don't want to feel this. But I feel so weak to deal with it. Is this normal? I'm feeling weird. Everything kind of hurts but at the same time it doesn't.
anyone else have a good evening/ day then fall back down hurrendously the next day? Honestly yesterday I felt great! Like I knew what I like (opposite gender) and these ‘false attractions’ are just false alarms caused by OCD… like I knew these thoughts and feeling are OCD. Today I question it all over again. Are these false attractions real? Why has my loss of opposite attraction feel like it won’t return? Though yesterday I got snippets.
Yesterday I had a good day after I decided to not let any thought or feeling ruin my day. My intrusive thoughts and hyper awareness of consiousness/thinking was still there. But my day was more than okay. I even felt normal some moments of the day 🤓 Let’s do the same today. Lets live with the ocd instead of trying to escape it at all times.
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