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- 14w ago
OCD
I feel like the worst kind of person and I am ruining my husband. I don’t know how I’m going to be able to change.
I feel like the worst kind of person and I am ruining my husband. I don’t know how I’m going to be able to change.
I am always here for you! It’ll be ok💕
@sshafer89 Thank you
@PastSelf25 You are welcome!!
Hi there, thank you for sharing this and seeking support. I know how tough it can be to feel this way. Were you aware that this core fear is incredibly common in OCD? Here's a blog post on the topic, in case it helps https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/common-fears/fear-of-being-a-bad-person
@Jennifer Dalimonte Thank you this makes me feel supported.
OCD always tries to make people feel like a horrible person or monster who runs everything. That’s what OCD does. OCD lies to us to make us attack ourselves
@Tea and Honey Thank you this makes me feel supported.
I feel the same way. I'm ruining my marriage bc of it. I feel like I'm snapping. I can hardly get out of bed. I'm a complete mess. I need a shower and to take care of myself, but I don't have it in me. I feel like I'm going insane! I hope your day gets better.
@Speckles This is exactly how I am. Down to needing to take care of myself and not being able to. We are the same
@PastSelf25 Sorry you are going thru this too. My husband has been trying to be understanding, but I know he's frustrated with me and I feel like a burden. I hope things get better for both of us. I'm here if you need to vent or talk. I know exactly what you are going thru
If you have OCD ask him to be understanding and become familiar with some of the things you are dealing with. There are also lots of good tips on the Patrick McGrath Wednesday night webinar on the NOCD page on YouTube. Or really any NOCD webinar can be helpful. Go ahead and check out some of the videos. In addition you can contact NOCD for a free 15 minute call to discuss further. They can offer more detail than I can here. https://www.treatmyocd.com/about-us/contact-us
That sounds like a really difficult train of thought. I am sorry that you are struggling with that. ERP is a great form of treatment that can help tackle that thought and OCD trained therapists can help assess for OCD/ anxiety and talk with you about all those types of thoughts. You are not alone in this community!
My ocd is ruining my relationship with my kids. Because of the intrusive thoughts I avoid being close to them, hugging or cuddling up to watch tv. My ocd is either telling me I wouldn’t care if harm came to them or it turns everything into something sexual or inappropriate. For example, my daughter wanted to show me how long her nails are so she started scratching my arm gently. It felt so nice and relaxing and I immediately panicked because I was scared the ocd would cause a groinal and I don’t ever, ever want a feeling like that connected with my child even though I know it’s the ocd causing it and not me i’d still feel horrible. I just want to be a normal loving affectionate mom and I can never be that for my kids because of ocd😪 I don’t see any other parents posting about going through this or commenting that they do and how they cope. I feel so alone and defeated.
I feel like I’ll never lead a normal life again with OCD, my thoughts have begun to be convince especially about POCD. I feel like so sad and down that this will be my life forever. I’ll never get to fall in love again without intrusive thoughts. I’ll never be worth falling in love with. I can never be intimate again. I’m just done, my life is over. I can’t even look at my nephew and niece anymore without the smile fading. It feels like I’m so nasty and then my brain convinces me this is how I feel. That there’s some part of me that is a p*do and that’s it. I’m a disgusting human being for that. I just feel hopeless
Hello, I unknowingly have lived with ROCD or OCD (not sure what one. I’m new to this). It has ruined so many amazing romantic and platonic relationships and I am so sad that just now I am finding out what the hell is wrong with me. Maybe life would be different if I have known. My OCD and anxiety is at an all time high (ATH) due to some horrible events that have happened in the recent months. I am at the point where paranoia has taken over my life now. I had my first panic attack a few weeks ago where I fainted. My anxiety attacks are so extreme I go thought cognitive distortion that has lasted days. My girlfriend of 3 years is my emotional guardian and she no long has the energy to be that and honestly it’s not her responsibility to be that. She is bi and wanted to have an open relationship and for someone who has OCD this has not been good for me. She also was assaulted in my own home by a good friend of ours when I was out of town but it’s not a clear situation because it sounded consensual at first. I just left my very high paying job. I am financially secure but the job was emotionally abusive and looking back made my OCD worse. I am taking some time off to get my head right…but now, all I have to do during the day is live in my OCD. I’m very happy I finally figured out why I act the way I do but I don’t know if I can get better quick enough to save my relationship. I have never been so worried about myself (M 28 years old). I am a confident young professional and never thought I would be writing on a page like this. Anyway…I hope it gets better.
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