- Date posted
- 17w
OCD
I feel like the worst kind of person and I am ruining my husband. I don’t know how I’m going to be able to change.
I feel like the worst kind of person and I am ruining my husband. I don’t know how I’m going to be able to change.
I am always here for you! It’ll be ok💕
@sshafer89 Thank you
@PastSelf25 You are welcome!!
Hi there, thank you for sharing this and seeking support. I know how tough it can be to feel this way. Were you aware that this core fear is incredibly common in OCD? Here's a blog post on the topic, in case it helps https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/common-fears/fear-of-being-a-bad-person
@Jennifer Dalimonte Thank you this makes me feel supported.
OCD always tries to make people feel like a horrible person or monster who runs everything. That’s what OCD does. OCD lies to us to make us attack ourselves
@Tea and Honey Thank you this makes me feel supported.
I feel the same way. I'm ruining my marriage bc of it. I feel like I'm snapping. I can hardly get out of bed. I'm a complete mess. I need a shower and to take care of myself, but I don't have it in me. I feel like I'm going insane! I hope your day gets better.
@Speckles This is exactly how I am. Down to needing to take care of myself and not being able to. We are the same
@PastSelf25 Sorry you are going thru this too. My husband has been trying to be understanding, but I know he's frustrated with me and I feel like a burden. I hope things get better for both of us. I'm here if you need to vent or talk. I know exactly what you are going thru
If you have OCD ask him to be understanding and become familiar with some of the things you are dealing with. There are also lots of good tips on the Patrick McGrath Wednesday night webinar on the NOCD page on YouTube. Or really any NOCD webinar can be helpful. Go ahead and check out some of the videos. In addition you can contact NOCD for a free 15 minute call to discuss further. They can offer more detail than I can here. https://www.treatmyocd.com/about-us/contact-us
That sounds like a really difficult train of thought. I am sorry that you are struggling with that. ERP is a great form of treatment that can help tackle that thought and OCD trained therapists can help assess for OCD/ anxiety and talk with you about all those types of thoughts. You are not alone in this community!
My OCD has become so bad and I feel so alone. I have religious OCD (Christianity) and I’ve been doing okay with letting the blasphemous thoughts go in the moment, but I’m so overcome with guilt and shame I can barely function. I can feel okay and hopeful for a few minutes and then I’m reminded of the horrible thoughts and how nothing can take them back and I can’t handle the guilt. I’m becoming a burden to my family and feel so alone. I do not know what to do. Please help.
I’m struggling so much, I don’t know what’s changed. I was doing so well for a solid two months and now it’s been over a month of just my lowest point. My bf has gotten upset at how much I do compulsions and it’s taxing him too. I can’t imagine how hard it is to be my partner right now. I feel exhausted I’m tired of my OCD finding new things to obsess or worry over. I’m so TIRED of getting stuck on technicalities. I’m so exhausted with the constant intrusive thoughts and intrusive thinking. I’m so sick of how compulsive I get when I’m so riddled with anxiety. I don’t want to keep pushing. It feels pointless if my life is going to be a constant loop of ups and extreme lows. I feel like such a disgusting, embarrassing person. I don’t want love because I don’t feel like I deserve it. I don’t want patience or understanding because it makes me feel so guilty. Like no one is understanding how bad of person I could truly be. I’m so lost and tired of this
My ROCD is at an all time high right now. I have an appointment set up, but the wait is awful. My husband found one of my erp exercises where I write a sentence about him maybe not being the right partner. I had forgotten to throw it away. Of course it made him sad. I feel so ashamed and like I've damaged our relationship beyond repair. The sad part is, the thought comes,"if he ends it, at least I might get some relief". I feel like the worst wife.
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