I’m having intrusive thoughts

I feel like I’m crazy like I’m so unstable that I don’t deserve anything good in life. That I don’t deserve my bf because I’m too emotional and unwell that he deserves someone who is better than me and who can control their thoughts. I can’t control myself. I’m scared I’ll lose complete control and hurt myself. I’m scared these thoughts will never go away(I know they will) but they won’t leave. I will feel better for 20 mins and then I actually start crying uncontrollably. It’s 1am and I actually cannot help myself I have no idea what to do I just feel so crazy and hopeless. I want someone to hug me and tell me I’ll be okay but no one is with me. I’m alone in a dark room with my orange cat. My bf is in another city rn and I’m having intrusive thoughts about him too. I wish he was here but he’s not coming back until next weekend omg :(

Unknown1234

Date posted: 25w

I’m here if you need to talk.

Gumball50

Date posted: 25w

@Anonymous I feel like I’m so insane and I am always asking why to every single thing but why can’t I just let it be. Why am I so judgmental why am I so unkind to myself why am I acting like a pick me rn. Why do I keep asking why lmao. Literally I never go a day without intrusive thoughts and anxiety. Anxiety ruins relationships and ruins me. It runs my life and I scheduled a free call for tmr morning I’m so scared what if I feel better in the morning and I’m just going crazy rn. Idk if any of that made sense but thank you for listening to me anonymous person

Unknown1234

Date posted: 24w

@Gumball50 - Of course, it's so hard to stop constantly asking why. Just take a deep breathe and just relax, easier said then done, it's always helpful to talk about it during sessions. Listening to some OCD and anxiety relief music can also help with relaxation.

anonymous737...

Date posted: 22w

someone pls answer!

I have ocd, i have crazy intrusive thoughts that make me super uncomfortable, the thing is i understand that ocd goes against your morals and try’s to make you feel like a bad person but how do i avoid pushing people away while trying to treat my ocd.. i love my boyfriend so so much but when i get intrusive thoughts about hurting his feelings or doing something terrible it scares me so bad that i’m scared to be around him because in my head it’s like “why am i even thinking of this if i love him so much” and i know i would never do anything to hurt him but i just feel terrible because he’s an amazing boyfriend and i have all these bad thoughts. :(

Gmoki

Date posted: 18w

Frat bf asked for a break. ADHD/ ocd acting up :(

:( so I have multiple posts abt this. I hate being alone bc the thoughts get worse and I spiral. I can’t believe he did this I love him a ton. My previous posts have more details, but yea. This feels impossible to get over. Pls can someone talk to me and help me? I have a therapist and friends and family and they’re amazing. But I’m annoying with how much I talk about the same situation over and over again. I’m not supposed to be seeking reassurance and sitting with the thoughts and work with them using erp. I’m trying SO SO hard. I’m just shocked I hate the nighttime when it’s radio silent. :( I feel like a loser

Justmesadly

Date posted: 12w

Spiraling

Please help I am having the worst spiral I have had in 5 years. I am doing so bad to the point I could not even sleep. I’m so scared, anxious and confused. I did ocd therapy for a long time and my therapist told me I was doing so well I needed to stop. Which I was until about 2-3 weeks ago it started back super bad. And now as of yesterday the intrusive thoughts feel more definitive. They are making me spiral, it literally feels like my brain is jumping from side to side. I love my boyfriend more than I knew was humanly possible. I haven’t lost my attraction to him, not that I know of… I don’t want to break up with him bc i love him, I think he’s hot, I want to marry him but I’m terrified that I am just lying and that the feelings never were true! I don’t know how to make it stop. I tried all night not to research and I had to give in. 😭 this is hell

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