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- 29w
Weird
I’ve started ERP therapy with a really great therapist, and I haven’t gave into my compulsions but I still have anxiety and yesterday my brain was telling me that people were zombies😭 is this normal?
I’ve started ERP therapy with a really great therapist, and I haven’t gave into my compulsions but I still have anxiety and yesterday my brain was telling me that people were zombies😭 is this normal?
healing takes time, some days we may feel more anxious than any other day. it doesn't mean we are failing, This is just part of the way :)
Do you know that saying two steps forward one step back? It's definitely a thing. Watched my very young daughter go through this therapy over a year now and the progress is amazing but I can tell you there were very dark times and it wasn't always easy. Our brains are telling us a million things per second. Sometimes we get stuck on a random item that doesn't mean anything at all. Anxiety seems to be a part of this process. Your brain is learning how to live all over again and it's a pretty uncomfortable path to wellness. You can feel better though, I promise. I had doubts in the past but then I was proven wrong. You can do it, I believe in you.
When i started therapy in October, I thought my OCD would never get better. When my physicatrist told me last February I had OCD I resigned myself to it and then embarked on some of the worst months ever for my OCD. By the time i got here I didn’t have much hope. Now I’ve actually learned to deal with my OCD and for the first time in my life moving through the world isn’t a constant painful thing. Give it some time, it gets better i promise
Yep, normal. OCD does this type of stuff
I find while doing exposures, rarely does my anxiety lessen. It usually amps up and stays that way for the remainder of the day. I could be having a fairly decent day, but dutifully do my exposures and then the rest of my day is anxiety filled. I guess that’s just how it is now? Also, I’m wondering if my therapist even believes I have OCD. I totally understand my therapist cannot provide reassurance. But it’s to the point it seems my therapist acts like I actually did the thing I fear. I feel so isolated.
So I’ve noticed that my OCD has calmed down, I’m getting less intrusive thoughts but I feel more uncertain than ever. Is this normal for recovery?
(21+ ONLY: TRIGGER WARNING) I have therapy today and I’m nervous. I just started going to therapy and I really like my therapist. She talked to me about doing ERP and I’m really nervous about it. I’m scared to tell her the extent of my OCD, and my themes. I’m scared to tell her about my false memory OCD, because I’m scared that what I did was real and I’m just excusing it as false memory, although I have no memory of it. I’m scared that I am truly a monster and I’m using OCD as an excuse—and that she’ll find out and distance herself. I’m just scared that my whole world is gonna fall apart, all around me.
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