im so tired it feels like its true, constant transphobic thoughts mixed in with thoughts if im a boy. istg im a completely different person and so different to everyone dealing with gender ocd. im heartbroken
The way I describe it to my bf is that I feel like a Alien from out of space (obviously lol) But it feels like I just got here to planet earth and it feels like idk who I am anymore or what I wanna be or I just feel usually off cause I feel like I lost my identity now. So if that's how you feel, just know I completely understand. I'm down to continue the conversation on here if you wanna reply!
@mint_moonlight same lol
@nikkispacee Also do you feel like your brain is just not happy with either or sometimes? Lmfao. Like it just feels like f it, you're neither 😭 Sorry if I been annoying you, I was just surprised to see someone going through the same thing rn
@mint_moonlight yes and ur not annoying me at all dww
i genuinely couldn’t sleep
May I ask, what is it that you think about or how does it feel for you? I'm kinda going through this too as well recently and just wanted to say I relate
@mint_moonlight its such constant self doubt if im a girl or not like ive been lying abt being comfortable as a girl. checking in all kind of ways. as for the transphobic stuff its weird bc i dont remember the thoughts but im having them
@nikkispacee Sorry for the late reply. I was watching my show haha
@nikkispacee But mine is similar to yours but for me it's like, sometimes I'll look in the mirror and notice I look like a guy sometimes? And I'll feel confused cause I feel like I oh maybe I'll look good as a guy but then I start thinking and thinking about it all day long and self doubting. Or like what you said sorda, I never had a problem before but all of a sudden last year I kept having these doubts like oh maybe I am or am i? Am I self doubting a deep desire and so on ? It feels like I'm lying to myself all the time and never know who I am or what I am?? Or what I'm comfortable being anymore. Cause my brain will like be like you wanna be a boy or wanna look like one or you like the idea of it. But tje the other side is like you wanna be a girl but you're confused and so on. The hard thing I'm going through is that usually of i had those thoughts I'd be so anxious but now it feels like I'm in denial??? And now it feels like I'm afraid of being a girl or looking like one or feel like I'm not supposed to be one anymore?????? So ots been so confusing So idk if that sounds similar to how your thoughts work ? Or if it sounds similar to the confusion oh who you are anymore?
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