- Date posted
- 4w ago
Today: Health OCD AMA with me, Sam Temple, 4pm CT / 5pm ET
From the age of 10, I’ve had all kinds of frightening thoughts taking over my mind. Tell me about a disease, and I’d be on WebMD and Discord, researching symptoms because I was afraid I had it. For a while I even walked around with a heart rate monitor, a pulse oximeter, and other equipment, because I was terrified that my heart might beat too fast—and maybe give out. I would tell people, I feel like I’m possessed. Like there’s someone else in the driver’s seat of my brain. It was a lonely life, because I didn’t know anyone else who was struggling with these things the way I was. Now, at 26, I know it wasn’t simple anxiety and that I have obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD), though I didn’t get the right diagnosis for many years—after all, my experiences didn’t match the symptoms most people associate with the condition. But my diagnosis is what changed everything. It allowed me to find the treatment I needed to thrive with OCD. Something I used to hear a lot when I shared my fears was that I was really creative. I’d tell my family about my thoughts and they would say, ‘Oh, you have such a big imagination.’ I have to say: man, that was not it. I had a disorder. I connected with NOCD, and my life changed. My NOCD Therapist explained these weird thoughts and superstitions weren’t me —they were symptoms of OCD, and they didn’t mean anything about who I am. That was a revelation. I spent a really long time not understanding what intrusive thoughts were. I didn’t even know the term ‘intrusive thoughts.’ But at NOCD I was learning that I’m not in control of every thought that I have. This was so pivotal to managing my OCD, learning that you can’t control everything that enters your mind—you can only change your reaction. I’d love to hear about your experiences with Health OCD. Drop your stories and questions below. I’ll respond live in the comments today at 4pm CT!