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This platform changed my life for the better with ERP. Give it a go and you’ll see if it helps you. Sounds like your OCD doesn’t want you to show up to your session so you can stay stuck with it instead. Fucking OCD. 😤

I get being nervous, I really do, but this is all your OCD/anxiety weighing you down. Push through those fears, it WILL be worth it. NOCD changed my life and there's no reason it can't change yours, too.

It makes sense to be nervous! Especially because OCD hates the unknown, and there is no way to know how therapy will go until it happens. And OCD will have us fearing the worst case scenario too. It can even make you doubt treatment and therapy itself, I have experienced that too. NOCD is definitely the right platform for OCD and ROCD, but I know that OCD will still have you doubting that. As someone who understands how you feel and has also been through ERP therapy, I want to encourage you to power through the fears and uncertainties, and see how the first session goes. You can talk about all these fears and concerns with your therapist too and they can help. I am rooting for you! I know it's scary.

I was nervous for my first session too. My compulsions were increasing significantly and I couldn't focus on anything. I didn't think I could go through with my first session. I was worried about many of the same things, if I talk too much, if I share too much, etc. My first session came, and my therapist asked her first question and I just poured my heart out and cried for almost the whole hour. In just a couple of months, NOCD and my therapist changed my life. I was able to start getting back to my life and I couldn't be more grateful that I took the first step. It's the hardest step, but I promise it will be okay. You can do this❤️❤️