moon027097

Date posted: 4w ago

Starting to hate my room

Idk if im the only one but I've literally just been holed up in my bedroom for the past 3 months and have barely gone out especially in the last 2. I'm too scared to leave and interact with people normally because I feel like a criminal and like someone who doesn't deserve to be around others. But in the same breath, I'm starting to hate my bedroom. It just feels like all my negative emotions are being bottled up and stored in here. I keep telling myself I should go out and take a walk and maybe it will feel better to just be out in the fresh air. But also don't want to because I'm quite lethargic on top of not eating that much either. Just feeling... stuck.

AngieAng

Date posted: 4w ago

I used to feel this too, I ended up sitting there in bed looking at the ceiling and then randomly got up and took a shower and started cleaning my room opening my curtains blasting music and tried to enjoy the view out the window I guess i just got better after a good boost of energy, I feel like all that negative energy I had in my room got cleared when I started doing joyful things maybe you just need a little boost too so you can get that energy cleared up and a fresh new start for even just a few days to make your room feel like a safe place even. Sometimes our minds stop us from feeling good about certain spaces

Blueberrycows

Date posted: 4w ago

Sounds like depression friend and anxiety and OCD 🫂 ❤️ if you do anything today at all please go and sit with your mom and go watch tv … I don’t care if you end up just starting at the wall atleast it’s a different environment… I’m not invalidating your feelings at all … depression and anxiety and OCD absolutely suck 💯 no doubt but your body is so used to being sad or worried etc in that room that. It literally feels impossible to get out of that room ..: I don’t care if you have to body crawl to get out of that room please just go to a different area because it only makes depression or whatever symptoms worse when you’re by yourself to think … like I have told someone else I will get on this app daily to check on you … we talked about reading or something you enjoy … put something in the kitchen or the living room or something you will want to use daily or you’ll need daily … so your body will get used to being out of that room and eventually it’ll be habit to go somewhere else in the house … I know your OCD is bad but putting that aside it’s not healthy to stay in your room all the time or any area all the time it’s a huge cause of depression I don’t care if you get out of your room for an hour a day and go straight back … just get out and do something … if you don’t want to talk to anyone don’t talk just write down on paper bad mental health day or whatever… go stare outside at the trees through the screen door … just do something because not getting outside to enjoy the sun etc means you don’t get a lot of serotonin which is the happy chemical and something everyone needs

moon027097

Date posted: 4w ago

this made me tear up a little. thank you for being so kind to me while im on here. it means a lot to me and my mental health. i am trying each day to come out of my room, but most says i just end up in bed and watching a series in my laptop while worrying and being anxious. i will try to leave though my room though, as it is something i want to do. im going to a friend's birthday thingy on the weekend so maybe that will refresh me. thanks again for your help❤️‍🩹🫂🫂

Blueberrycows

Date posted: 4w ago

@moon027097 Sure friend no worries and I’m glad I helped just a bit … if it helps I’ll hold you accountable for going to your friends party and I’ll ask you how it was at the end of the weekend so you’re motivated to go

🖤SavageGirl🖤

Date posted: 4w ago

You are so kind, thank you for all the support you give us <3

🖤SavageGirl🖤

Date posted: 4w ago

@moon027097 - Another suggestion is to walk out of your bedroom, a little past your comfort zone, then go back. You can do this however long you'd like until you get more comfortable, then go a little farther. It's like stretching. The more you work on it, the farther you'll go. When you have a thought, acknowledge what it was and study how it made you feel physically. Cold? Hot? Shaky?

moon027097

Date posted: 4w ago

@SavageGirl this sounds like a good suggestion, thank you🥹 I will do this! I'll try to observe my thoughts and feelings too

🖤SavageGirl🖤

Date posted: 4w ago

@moon027097 - The thoughts and feelings part came from my therapist, actually! I have many types of OCD that affect me constantly. I pray that I've helped. <3

moon027097

Date posted: 4w ago

Worst depressive episode of my life. My mom even made a comment this morning saying 'you usually hug me all the time and come and chat but you don't really do that anymore'. I just want to disappear. I love her and I know she loves me. This is all sucks.

Blueberrycows

Date posted: 4w ago

Hey moon I hope I don’t come across as stalkerish …. But forgive me if I do … do you have an email or some place I can get into contact with you outside of this app I have a question for you …. Please tell me if I’ve over stepped

moon027097

Date posted: 4w ago

not stalkerish at all. Do you have a discord by any chance? idk how i feel about posting an email address on here (but that's more about me being paranoid lol)

Blueberrycows

Date posted: 4w ago

@moon027097 Hehehe I get that and yep I have discord

moon027097

Date posted: 4w ago

@Blueberrycows idk how it works since i don't really use discord a lot but is my username enough? my user is moon025607__ (that's 2 underscores)

Blueberrycows

Date posted: 4w ago

@moon027097 Yeppers sounds good friend

moon027097

Date posted: 4w ago

@Blueberrycows also just realised that my user on there and on here are moon with a bunch of numbers afterwards lmao

Blueberrycows

Date posted: 4w ago

@moon027097 lol that’s too funny I just sent you a request

GuiltyGrapes

Date posted: 23w ago

Why am I still here?

My life has been hell, and I don’t know how to move on. I (15M) did awful things when I started high school, thinking being sexual was the way to connect. I crossed boundaries, overshared, and kept flirting with friends and making sexual jokes, even after they said no (all over text). One friend stopped talking to me and can’t even look at me now. I feel like a monster. Why shouldn’t I be locked up? If I got therapy, I feel like I’d be sent jail. How can I ever move on?Then there were these 2 guys who were older than me one was 16 one was 17. The 16 yr old was introduced to me by my online friend who is my best friend and I begged the 16 yr old for pics (idk how it started but after my friends ex randomly messaged me and sent me pictures and then blocked me right after I think I became addicted to chasing that high) the 16 yr old eventually sent me a pic but it was real and I stopped bugging him on it after that but i feel so bad I did that but my friend tells me not to feel bad cause the guy was weird but I still feel bad. Then the 17 yr old I did the same thing with him but went too far when I tried getting pics from him by using my best friends ass pics she sent me (she was 15) I don’t think I grasped how wrong this was but that’s not an excuse she eventually found it when I told her after she tried getting pics from the guy herself to try and help me and the guy got mad when she stopped talking to him cause we found it weird talking to him. I told her about how I sent the pics she said she felt sick but forgave me cause she thought I was gonna harm myself. Fast forward the guy told me after I had still been flirting with him that I s@d him (we never met in person ever) and I felt so guilty and apologized a lot and he got annoyed and told me that he had been kinda manipulative to me and kept me in a loop of mystery and I don’t talk to him anymore. But one of my other friends stopped talking to me after I was being by too emotionally taxing on him because I became very depressed and didn’t wanna life anymore and tried to stop lifing a few times. And now idk if I actually s@d someone if I did that to someone and now I think I’m a pdo and I think I s@d my baby cousins and my little brother and now I’m scared bf I can’t even get help because my parents don’t believe in therapy and even if I wanted to I’m scared because I don’t want to go to jail but I think I deserve it honestly why should a monster like me live.

Jemma_Dan

Date posted: 13w ago

What should I do guys?

I’ve been feeling so disconnected lately, like I’m not even living my own life. It’s like I’m being controlled by someone else, and I have no say in what’s happening. It’s hard to put this feeling into words, but it’s like I’m here physically, but mentally, I’m just... not. Every day feels like a struggle. I wake up afraid of what’s coming next, almost like I’m bracing myself for the next bad thing to happen. Sometimes, I don’t even want to get out of bed because it feels pointless, like I’m stuck in this loop of fear and doubt. I keep questioning everything, life, my purpose, my choices, and it’s exhausting. I just want to feel like myself again, to feel like I have control, like I’m really here.

anxiousashhh

Date posted: 10w ago

feeling low

I think I’m going through the hardest depression right now. I’ve never felt so compelled to just stop getting up and stop living. I know it’s hard to hear, I just really feel bad. Right now I even feel like an attention seeker. I just wanted to know, are there any tips to raise me from this hole im in? Has anyone else felt like this an pulled themselves out?

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