Anais V
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- 36w
Serial killer?))!
Guys I’m scared I’m a serial killer. Like what if I kill somebody how do I know I won’t. Also like watching murder documentary’s trigger this.
ocdnoocding ocdnoocding
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Hi! I know this is an awful thought to have and really worrisome! ERP would tell us to say it’s possible but not likely or maybe maybe not but I know for something like this that seems impossible. The thing that I would think is a serial killer wouldn’t be scared of being a serial killer. Since maybe maybe not may be too difficult for something like this try reminding yourself this just your OCD talking. And maybe stop watching the documentary for now to give yourself a break. BUT I do think watching it would be good for exposure!
Anais VAnais V
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- 36w
@ocdnoocding Thank you for writing all of this, it was very helpful!
AnonymityKAnonymityK
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- 36w
OCD latches onto fears that go completely against your values; that’s why this feels so terrifying. The fact that this thought scares you so much shows it’s ego-dystonic, meaning it’s the opposite of who you are and what you want. OCD creates doubt and urges you to seek certainty, but that only feeds the cycle. Are you working with an ERP therapist?
Anais VAnais V
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- 36w
@AnonymityK I have a counselor, but she’s not exactly an OCD specialist by any means.
AnonymityKAnonymityK
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 36w
@Anais V What kind of therapist is she? Do you do exposures with her?
Anais VAnais V
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- 36w
@AnonymityK I think just a certified counselor. But no exposures, she got me through sui*** OCD though. So I’m not completely sure.
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The thing is you will never have 100% certainty, ocd will all ways doubt it and say but what if ,you and to accept uncertainty and learn how to be okay if your fear happens its hard and scary but the only way to loosen ocd grip over you
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