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- 40w
AmpyyyAmpyyy
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- 40w
I don’t really want to be but im like numb to the idea. Idk I guess like im just confused idk what to do
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 40w
@Anonymous I know exactly what you mean, I have had this ocd for a WHILE and I feel like I have thoughts about it so much my brain is confused and now I’m just like numb to it allllll.
AmpyyyAmpyyy
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- 40w
@Anonymous Yes! And I feel like I so different or the exception to hocd and I am. But idk how to explain it but I just feel like I am and that I’m ok with it. But like I don’t want to be but I’m okay with it it’s all very confusing
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 40w
@Anonymous No I get it, some days are worse then others but some days it’s like you have a thought and you say to yourself “whatever” and there is no anxiety after. And then sometimes the fact you had no anxiety makes you overthink. Because what if I’m the one who doesn’t have ocd and I just made that up to make myself feel better. You know.
AmpyyyAmpyyy
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- 40w
@Anonymous Yeah it just feels so real with like feeling like I truly enjoy and desire that. And I see all these late blooming lesbians and bi people and it makes me wonder if that’s me. I feel ok if I’m that way even though at the beginning I freaked out. It feels 100% real and I feel like I just need to come out and accept it. But I look back and realize I’ve only ever loved men. But I look back again and see some things that make me think I’ve probably always been this way and just haven’t caught it. So I honestly don’t know what I am anymore. I crave to be scared of it but I’m just not
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 40w
The people coming out late in life freak me out Personally. because In a way I want to be sure. I get thoughts that sometimes don’t bother me and then sometimes the do. It’s just all over the place. But I know what you are feeling. Honestly we just just need to keep taking it a day at a time and just learn as we go. I think we have gotten numb to emotions related to this in general and it’s definitely not fun
AmpyyyAmpyyy
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- 40w
@Anonymous Yeah praying it’s just hocd I’m numb to everything now so not even that freaks me out much anymore
SesamoiSesamoi
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- 40w
Why is this so REAL, Omg. I’ll share with you I sent through a period of questioning too. I am Catholic and was abt to lose it until I walked into mass and they played “All Are Welcome.” God will always love you, and you will always love Him. Whether you’re bi or not, hocd or not, nothing can take that away. I consider myself straight, but I do sometimes question if I’d like to be with a woman. Especially since it’s more common nowadays, so is questioning. Don’t take yourself so seriously, God understands and will help you find your way.
AmpyyyAmpyyy
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- 38w
@Bluebells Did you feel the same way I do?
mental Warrior mental Warrior
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- 40w
OMW, your intro to OCD is exactly like mine😭
AmpyyyAmpyyy
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- 40w
@Arya age Omg glad I’m not alone is yours the same with hocd?😭
mental Warrior mental Warrior
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- 40w
Do when you say if you are bisexual you'll just deal with it, does that mean you wouldn't mind being bisexual? Or..
AmpyyyAmpyyy
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- 40w
@Arya age But my brain says I want to be and that if I was I’m fine with it but I can tell if it’s me or ocd
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