i just got diagnosed with ptsd on top of my ocd but my ocd is trying to convince me that i am lying to myself & my psychiatrist & that i am an “attention-seeker”. i feel so embarrassed by these thoughts that its eating me up. my ocd makes me feel so invalidated from what i went thru that led to me being diagnosed with ptsd… does anyone else experience this?
Yes. I also have PTSD and feel constant guilt and worry that I’m being overdramatic.
@ktopaz this makes me feel like i’m not alone. thank you! 🥹🙏
Dude same!!! I experience this almost every day.
I am sorry to hear OCD is doing this to you, it is such a rough road to travel. You are not at all alone in having OCD make you doubt so much about yourself and your memory. It's one of OCD's favorite tricks. Here is an article on the topic, in case it is helpful! https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/dealing-with-doubt
I know where you’re coming from, 100%. The “imposter syndrome” is so real, I’m constantly trying to convince myself that things aren’t as bad as they actually are. The truth is that the issues we have are problems that need solving and trying to ignore them or put them on the backburner is not going to help us. You’re not alone.
It’s a similar diagnosis for borderline personality disorder, it stems from imposter syndrome where you feel like no matter how you act, you’re just acting. Your mind tricks you into thinking you’re trying to get attention or overreacting because your brain can’t fully comprehend the excessive amount of emotions. I hope things get better hon
OCD is the doubt disorder, OCD lives in the most primitive, childlike, non-evolved part of the brain, the amygdala. It is the part of the brain that wants to protect you and keep you vigilant to protect from your core fears. It knows your earliest and deepest fears and works hard to keep you vigilant so they don't happen, but doesn't know how things work, and has no abstract understanding of anything. Trying to reason with that part of the brain is like trying to teach a 5 year old calculus. Your feelings are always valid! Think of that part of the brain as a frantic and scared 3 year old with no understanding of what trauma even is. You would not let a 3 year old drive your car! Here is an article about Meta OCD that may be helpful. It is so courageous to share, thank you for opening up! https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/obsessing-about-obsessing-is-this-really-ocd
my psych told me im experiencing symptoms of ptsd, i have tons of trauma that is getting unloaded right now so that makes sense... it is absolutely horrifying. trauma and ocd are the worst combo. you are not alone in this! sometimes i feel like im being overdramatic and that its all my fault... our brain always tries to lie to us :(
A lot of my problems are tied to massive instances of childhood abuse, especially emotional/psychological abuse where I was flat out being told that I was ugly, unlovable, worthless, lazy, etc. I don't really believe those specific things, but I think I feel those emotions stronger than other people because of the fact that I wanted to prove that those things were lies. Like when someone I'm dating loses interest, I go from 0 to 100 in my emotions. I also convince myself that my childhood wasn't actually that bad and I'm being overdramatic and I feel silly talking about it. Yet, at the same time, I want people to recognize my struggles and feel like I'm sophocating from holding it all in. Being lazy probably hits the hardest, because I never feel like I'm doing enough and I'm so exhausted and unmotivated but I tell myself I'm making excuses. I can be so unmotivated and depressed that I don't shower for a couple weeks and there is trash on my floor and even if I'm genuinely embarrassed by people seeing that...I just can't do it. But even typing this I feel dumb for asking for validation in that instead of doing something productive with my time.
I’m newly diagnosed with ocd. I tend to ruminate on mistakes I’ve made or things I’ve said, I often find myself trying to convince myself I’m not everything my ocd tries to convince me I am. I can’t control my thoughts half the time and it’s exhausting. I’ve laid awake night after night researching various diseases and illnesses trying to convince myself I’m not dying I don’t know where my ocd begins and ends at this point. I think I’ve always had a tendency to over think but the health ocd started more recently. I was diagnosed with nerve damage in my face and arthritis and I think that sparked something in me that makes my mind wonder to no end what else is wrong. Recently I’ve been struggling with the feelings of not being enough or being too much, I’ve been looking back at things I’ve done and said in the past and wonder why people put up with my shit and then I spiral into the inevitable chaos of my overthinking. I’m trying really hard to learn how to control it but I’m sure everyone here can attest as to how painful and aggravating that can be. I just needed to vent.
i’m terrified to get a diagnosis. What if it’s not actually OCD??? I made a list of reasons why i think so and then i think what if im lying and i actually don’t do this stuff and am just dramatic and i just want to have OCD so then my thoughts are justified?? I have struggled in the past year with Pocd & Rocd and then also some bits of thinking im constantly in danger or being watched? I’m scared.
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