When I share about false memory ocd and people tell me " you know the answer deep down," " you can find the answer within yourself" i feel horrible because i don't know the answer if something happened or not because I'm in conflict if it happened or not due to memories popping up and my innerself saying it happened but then I argue against it and I don't know if I'm arguing against it because I don't want to accept the truth
Im in the same position and it tortured me
I'm sorry you're going through this as well it's very overwhelming it's got me feeling jittery and nauseous just intrusively thinking about all of that
@Justsurviving Do you have insta? Can we talk about it
i relate to this so much, especially the last bit. there's always this doubt lurking in the background that im just in denial. it's a terrifying feeling to have to sit with day in and day out. but im trying to keep faith that it will get better. i hope we all get access to therapy soon so that we can tackle it head on.
Yes thats exactly what gets to me too .from reading your posts I noticed that we are experiencing a lot of the same things. I hope it gets better for you . Praying for your healing and strength in this š. I'm part of a chat that someone from here created idk if you know about it
@Justsurviving it gives me a little strength to know there's someone else who i can relate to (but it also sucks that you're experiencing this as well). praying that it gets better for you tooā¤ļøāš©¹ idk what chat that is š¤ has it been helpful?
@moon027097 If youre interested You would have to download groupme in your phone and on the discover bar on the top search NOCD chat group. Someone from here created it for everyone to connect with eachother more on our experiences . I have it as secondary support to here
You may never know. Memory is often not great. The solution to this problem is not to find out for sure what did or did not happen, it's to accept that it may or may not have. And you can live without knowing.
Dealt with this. For the most part, itās gone away but sometimes it still creeps up. I tell myself that Iām really just hurting myself trying to dig up memories when I donāt know if I can even trust my memories. The past is one of those things I let go of most of the time because it no longer serves me. I donāt gain anything from finding a bad memory, except hurt. Thatās also why I donāt get on TikTok anymore because thereās lots of triggering videos that play up childhood traumas like itās something that NEEDS to be dug up, when thatās not true. Especially, when these videos are made by average people who have no degrees in psychology.
Any advice? I just got triggered by false memory OCD. There is no indicator or memory of me doing anything bad, only the what if. So how can I deal with uncertainty because if I did do the false memory it would go against my morals?? Not something extremely unforgivable just like not ideal and against my moralsā¦ I donāt know if it happened. I have no memory of my false memory happen only the āwhat ifā which is enough to scare me FOR CONTEXT: I was in the mental hospital when I was 16, and made a few friends. Some just a grade below me, so 14-15. I remember bringing up in convo someone I met previously at the mental hospital earlier in that year a different time I was hospitalized , to which a boy responded he knew her, and they did (seggsual) stuff at their school. The girl I was talking about at that time was 14. So im assuming the boy was 14 as well. 13 and up is together in the hospital, so he couldnāt be younger than 13. I have no memories of him flirting with me or me flirting with him. Or anything bad happening. Literally just āwhat ifā.. or what if he wasnāt 14 but 13 and u said something inappropriate or flirted with him. I will never be able to know what happened and Iām sick thinking about this. 13 and 16 is NOT WITHIN MY MORALS. I am worried because the only inappropriate I guess convo had is when he was telling me what happened between him and that girl I knew. I also remember him having a bulge down there and it freaked me out and made me feel weird at the time because I noticed it. (At this time I was already diagnosed with OCD and experienced POCD) I try to tell myself maybe maybe not. But the what if it did happen makes me feel like a p33do, and me thinking it didnāt happen doesnāt satisfy me because I donāt have 100 percent certainty
I have a bunch of real event/false memory and there is one that I remember I got in the middle of a horrible episode and I believed it was false but now I canāt remember why I thought it was false and now believe it could be real and itās just bothering me so much because I want to remember the details to why I believed it was false in the first place and Iām just in a horrible spot and feel disgusting and am getting intrusive thoughts on my themes when I try to check if they are intrusive or not and I canāt function like i donāt wanna be around anyone because all I want to do is confess but I canāt because then Iāll obsess on confessing and they wonāt understand.
Idk if this happened to anyone but I have a lot of self doubt and memory problems.idk if they are false memories or not. When someone ,a relative , or even going to church in a deliverance service ask questions like "have you don't something in the past that you feel guilty about in the past?" "do feel like you admitting to stuff would make you feel a certain way ? I feel like it triggers me does that means that the thoughts I have are real and I did do something if I feel triggered. I always feel guilty š
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