Harm OCD

Does anyone else get super scared of feelings of adrenaline while you have intrusive thoughts? Like it feels like it’s trying to take over your body and those feelings of anger are trying to collide and dictate what ur body does? Now you feel impulsive and on edge and you feel like you are acting on your thoughts? Like I get thoughts about hurting family and I get super scared when I get feelings of anger about them and I feel that adrenaline! It’s all intrusive and I don’t like anything of it

Shermdog

Date posted: 22w

I had very similar feelings like this when I was in high school. I had a scary intrusive thought, adrenaline kicked in, and I felt like I was going to react on the thought. I ended up having to remove myself completely from the situation and go somewhere where I could be alone. It was Scary. But now I have lived with OCD for a couple years. I have realized that our thoughts and emotions do not control our actions. We as people control our actions. We can decide to not allow thoughts or emotions control our actions. Allow the intrusive thought to flow through your brain and leave. Take a deep breath, and remember you control your actions. It might be hard at first , but you will soon learn it works. It will get easier

Anonymous

Date posted: 22w

@Shermdog Yes! And the hyper focus was there so it always felt like every move I did and everything I did. I would react to that anger and immediately be like oh no now I have to fix it. It would feel like my breathing reacted to my thoughts or feelings and I was like no! No! Or it could be my words reacted out of that anger! I would be like no now I have to go back and say that in a calm way! It was all this hyper fixation somatically too! Is it Sometimes our body reacts to our thoughts if they manipulate us? It’s intrusive thoughts because it was latched on to the fear of being on edge and adrenaline. My compulsion would be to go back and do something more calmly because I felt like my adrenaline and thoughts would dictate how I sound or move too aggressively. Never desired. Just a hyper fixation

Anonymous

Date posted: 22w

@Shermdog I know I can control because I am morally aware it’s just that hyper fixation. It always felt like everything I did was an act on my thoughts because I fear it so much and that on edge feeling or my mind tricked me like oh you have to have to be harmful when nooooo I don’t and I was always so scared my mind would make it seem like doing something in a harmful way is a good thing. That’s why I always wanted to control my thoughts and feelings. I’m scared of doing the wrong thing amongst my thoughts. It always felt like it tried to trick me in that way. I would try to do things as normal but it only felt like my mind was trying to puppet me because that hyper focus was still there since I wasn’t trying to control them.

lu22

Date posted: 23w

Anyone else?

Has anyone else ever mistaken adrenaline or anxiety for ‘excitement’ or ‘happiness’ over a bad thought and then it made you feel like there is something wrong with you? Online it says adrenaline/anxiety/excitement can all feel the same and after going through ocd for so long I feel like I got use to the feeling of anxiety and I feel confused sometimes as to whether I actually feel anxious or not. I feel really worried I don’t know I don’t even know what I feel anymore I had this stabbing thought and then I had this feeling where it felt almost like I was happy or enjoying it or wanted it and had the urge feeling and. Now I’m worried there is something wrong with me because it felt like it was a real ‘desire’ and now I’m worried and I can’t forget about it or get over it

joshuadrennen

Date posted: 20w

struggling with harm OCD

i’m back in a cycle of having harm related OCD thoughts and feelings and urges and i get these episodes where it’s like i’m disassociating and feel like i’m about to snap and go crazy violent. does anyone else experience this? i need help

Andi 🤓☝️

Date posted: 18w

What is this?

Recently ive been getting very scared to even be angry bc of the horrible thoughts I have and it feels even more real when I'm angry or even annoyed. Rn I was not even super annoyed at my neice but I felt a twinge of annoyance since she went up to my face and was yelling at me while I was resting on the bed and I got this image of doing something bad to her and I felt my hand twitch very little. I got nervous and felt relieved when her dad told her to stop screaming for no reason. I've been hyperfocusing on my bodily reactions (mainly my hands or how I'm feeling like did I just enjoy that? Was I considering???) And I've noticed the small twitches whenever I'm mad or annoyed and it's scaring me so bad! Like do I want to act out? Am I holding back??? I used to not even twitch at all when mad and I felt 100% sure I'll never act out but now it feels like I don't know bc what do these twitches mean?, I do know I don't want to ever act out but it's so scary. Recently whenever I feel angry once the argument is over I cry really bad after I'm alone and I pray so i never want or act out. And when the annoyance passes I also feel so guilty and want to stay away. Im scared these are real urges and i research for many many hours to make sure they arent urges or impulses and i also tend to ask chatgpt or here if the anxiety gets so bad 😕

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