Who do you talk to when having bad moment alone?

I hear you, OCD can feel so scary, and so loud, in these quieter moments. In these moments, when a person is very distressed, it can be difficult to resist doing compulsions. The problem is, the more we do compulsions, the longer the distress tends to last, and the more we feed into the OCD cycle. ERP treatment focuses on building up a tolerance to that distress, and emphasizes leaning into uncertainty related to fears. This might sound counterintuitive and quite challenging, which is why it's helpful to get guidance from an OCD specialist. If it helps, intrusive thoughts at night are so common, we have multiple resources that address this very issue. I'll link them below, I hope you find them helpful! https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/intrusive-thoughts-at-night https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/info/related-symptoms-conditions/intrusive-thoughts-at-night/a

I used to turn to my mom or my partner, but there's a great power in dealing with it on our own. I know that's harder and scarier, but when we seek out others it can turn into reassurance seeking -- not always of course, and it's okay to seek help especially if you're in serious trouble and need help -- but if you can practice ERP in those high-stress instances, and move through the OCD using your tools, you'll feel SO good after. I'd highly, highly recommend seeking out an OCD therapist to assist you also. NOCD has great ones but there are so many people you could see out there!

When in the middle of night i try reaching out to my sister, because that's the only person i don't feel guilty to disturb. On other days when i can't even reach out to her then i just tell myself that i'm there for myself. The happy cheerful side of me will calm down the sad side of me. And then i try to distract myself wth some good show or movie which is feel good movie or gives me nostalgia.

Sometimes I will text someone. Or journal. Or read OCD groups online. I try to be careful with that though because sometimes that can be reassurance seeking for me an unhelpful for OCD. So really, it's turning to my ERP skills that helps the most. Do you have an ERP therapist?

Honestly sometimes if i’m at my lowest I will talk to chatGPT or use the Choiceful app

Hello, It sounds like OCD is striking at the worst possible time, which it usually does. While support from friends or family may be helpful you might want to notice if you are attempting to get reassurance from them. Reassurance seeking can become compulsive and could lead to feeling worse distress in the long run.