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- 6w ago
derealization depersonalization.
i came out of it now i’m back in , what helps?
i came out of it now i’m back in , what helps?
Very sorry you’re feeling depersonalization/derealization. I’ve def been there! The best strategy I’ve found is to recognize that you’re feeling it, but do your best to live life anyway. The more you do things outside of your head, the less and less you’ll feel disconnected from reality. It takes time and patience, but it’ll clear up. Like you said, you came out of it but now you’re back in. Only a matter of time till you send those feelings packing again. You’ve got this!
Grounding stuff and mindfulness will help. - notice several things around you immediately with your senses - box breathing meditation. Inhale for 4, hold for 4, exhale for 4, hold for 4. Repeat for a few minutes. - imagine roots coming out of your feet and connecting to the roots of the plans underground, barefoot is better (I hate feet and exposing mine but it does work). - self compassion like pamper days etc It's nothing to worry about. I've had this before and wish I knew these tips above
What does it feel like to you?
@Wolfram kind of like out of body , like living life from the outside or like i’m in a movie or video game.
I go in and out of it too, sometimes weeks. Feels like you're on autopilot. But the more I pay attention to it and worry about, and try to rid of it. Makes it worse and creates more problems. I think grounding/breathing helps. Writing notes to yourself of what you think is bad & tieing the truth of it being not that big of a deal. Being open & making fun your episode about to yourself. Simple example " here we go , I'm going on autopilot that causes anxiety for some reason. Whatever, I'm still so and so, and will be okay".
These videos might help:) https://youtu.be/rmH50bTp1zs?si=SdS6WjcYuA5ITxOF https://youtu.be/WH86RW-KGaY?si=ctfKCUugBhyv6HZw
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