- User type
- Therapist
- Date posted
- 22w
Taking the first step to start therapy is really hard. What is something that is holding you back?
i’m afraid that once i do erp and get to a better point i would realize my fear was actually true (rocd)
@vaIentine it already does feel true and i have been thinking of breaking up, i feel so emotionless and distant like i have no care anymore
Hey there! As a therapist, I have heard this exact fear from many of my clients. OCD can be so tricky and really make us believe that these thoughts are real, which is why these thoughts stick around and cause so much anxiety. I have a short video here that I think helps to capture some of these fears you're having: https://youtube.com/shorts/oCn7m9hKcOM?feature=shared
I think I struggle to explain myself correctly and that I won’t be able to prove that I am not functioning. I’m not very socialized anymore because I’ve been in my head for so long and if the appointment doesn’t go well, I worry I won’t keep seeking help. 😓
@agreenwood That sounds like a big struggle, and I can see why that would keep you from even wanting to take the first steps. One thing I will say is that as a therapist, I really take the time to listen to your story and provide support. We ask guided questions to help you in this process, and are understanding when it is difficult to fully express or explain yourself.
Commitment
I do not have insurance taken by most OCD therapists and I am not working
I am so sorry to hear that you are struggling with this. That is definitely a big hurdle to try and overcome. How do you feel like you've been coping with your OCD currently?
how do you determine the difference in scrupulosity and just true dedication? i don’t mean this in any sort of disrespectful way but maybe i’m just connecting with God on a deeper level than i was before. am i constantly distressed by the fear of disappointing God? yes but why would i not be. i think the stress and torture in my head are ment to motivate me to do more and try harder. it feels like i’m the character in the movie who knows something important and nobody believes them. i don’t think i have like superpowers or something that makes me able to “communicate with God more than anyone else” I don’t think people who don’t spend as much time reading the bible or praying as me are just inherently worse christians. i think maybe God makes everyone have different levels of awareness and that since i am on that level it’s my responsibility to do the due diligence that i do but that’s because i love God. i don’t think im special or the only person like this but i think that since i am one of the people like this i can’t turn my back to it and ignore it i don’t want to be scared and stressed anymore because it is taking away from my ability to think about God and worship him. i keep getting told that the answer to this OCD therapy but i don’t want to stop thinking all my religious thoughts i just want to be able to control what thoughts i think. i don’t want to be so emotionally unstable and distressed because i want to use this brain power ON GOD’S GLORY how do i tell this to my loved ones and therapist without sounding ridiculous i DO want help just in a different way
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