- User type
- Therapist
- Date posted
- 28w
Relationships and OCD
Relationships can be challenging for everyone. What are some ways OCD has come into your relationship and added extra struggles?
Relationships can be challenging for everyone. What are some ways OCD has come into your relationship and added extra struggles?
The need to always confess wrongdoing’s whether real or not. My thoughts making me think I don’t love my partner and that I would be better with someone else. And Harm OCD.
I am so sorry to hear about your struggles. It can be so difficult to sit with the urge to confess when your OCD makes you feel like you've done something wrong. Have you ever tried resisting this urge?
@Deborah Ward All the time, it’s mental gymnastics of a conversation I have in my head: “you’re a terrible person, I’m not a terrible person, you’re a better person now.” “You’re a terrible person, but I’ll be a better person going forward.” “Only a terrible person would think those thoughts of harm.” I have resisted the urge as of late, but early in my diagnosis, especially when I had a terrible harm-related OCD experience. Every single thought I had at that period was harm-related and avoiding the thoughts or figuring out why I was having those thoughts or if I would ever act on them. The anxiety from the thoughts was so much that I couldn’t not confess every little thing.
@alan87 - That is a great way to describe it, mental gymnastics. And I imagine that really took a ton of your energy too. I hear a lot of my members with similar thoughts going on inside their heads. It's a big reason why we talk about self-reassurance as a compulsion, and it never really making the OCD go away, especially when OCD is just going to keep the argument going no matter what you say back to it. How do you feel like you resisting your compulsions have helped your OCD?
@Deborah Ward I feel that sometimes when I resist, I have an urge to go back and complete it anyways or make it up somewhere along in the day. Also, I’ve never really put two and two together that self-reassurance was a compulsion. So me telling myself I am okay or that I am a good person now is a compulsion?
@alan87 - Yes, self-reassurance is one of the most common (and sneaky) compulsions that I see in treatment. Here is an article with some info on mental compulsions and how they feed into OCD: https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/mental-compulsions-the-unseen-battle It is hard because we always want to talk nicely to ourself and be positive; however, with reassurance, no amount will ever truly be enough to make the OCD "go away". That's how we fall into the compulsive side of things where you are having to seek reassurance more and more often (either from yourself or others).
rocd has caused me to hyper fixate on my boyfriends flaws and overanalyze his actions as “red flags” even when they are really not 😩
@ljlutes I’m so sorry to hear that. I imagine it makes it difficult to enjoy your time with them if your mind is filled with all these thoughts. How do you respond when these fears start coming up for you?
@Deborah Ward it does suck! and it makes me feel so guilty because he’s such an awesome guy. Recently i’ve tried to not acknowledge the thought for a little bit until it goes away instead of sitting and overthinking it.
@ljlutes - That's a big step in managing these thoughts! I have an article here as well that I think could be really helpful for you: https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/five-things-to-do-instead-of-compulsions
If I don’t hear from my husband all I can think about is he calling someone else or thinking about someone else. It gets to the point where I’ll start questioning him then we start arguing.
That's a big one that I see pretty commonly in sessions with members! It is so hard when OCD takes over and makes those alarm bells go off. How do you feel like you're coping with these thoughts?
Waking up every morning depressed because of the relationship and not feeling in line with my values.
Oh wow, that sounds extremely difficult. I am sure that others here in the community can relate at times. When OCD thoughts/fears have a heavy hold on us, it can be very common to start feeling depressed as well. Have you thought about seeking out any treatment, or are you in treatment currently?
@Deborah Ward I think I’m just in the wrong relationship
@521mullax - That could be true!
@521mullax What makes you say that?
I tell my bf everything and I got POCD so his family member or random people I will think sexual thoughts and always happens being intimate with my partner then I feel I have to confess because I feel guilty . He hates hearing about it now to the point he will end up breaking up with me if I don’t stop the confession
Oh wow, I am so sorry to hear about your struggles. I know how difficult it can be to resist when your OCD makes you feel like you have to confess something to someone. That is a very heavy issue to be having in your relationship. Have you ever tried to resist that urge to confess to him?
I constantly question whether or not he’s “the one” whenever something doesn’t meet my expectations. I ask myself a lot if he even understands me or if I even love him. I feel the need to tell him whenever I feel like I’ve done something wrong or when his mood is “off” and I end up making things so much bigger than they need to be. It’s so easy to spiral and so hard to pull myself back up. And after everything happens and I finally come to my senses I feel so embarrassed ashamed and the spiral happens all over again.
For me it is constantly questioning how I feel in the relationship/if my partner is right for me. As feelings ebb and flow in a relationship, during the times they aren’t as high, my OCD causes me to question if I need to impulsively break up with my partner because he might not be right for me.
That is a huge part of OCD. Every relationship is going to have natural high points and some lower spots, but OCD will definitely feed off that energy to make it feel like there's something wrong in your relationship. What type of compulsions do you notice yourself doing when these fears start for you?
@Deborah Ward Thank you Deborah for your support! That’s what it feels like. Definitely rumination
@Anonymous - Rumination can be a tricky compulsions to combat. Do you feel like your brain just kicks into rumination and by the time you realize it, it feels difficult to stop?
@Deborah Ward Yes I would say so
@Anonymous I’ve got an article here that I think might be helpful for you: https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/5-strategies-for-breaking-the-cycle-of-rumination Breaking the cycle of rumination can be very tricky, but I want to assure you that there is hope!
@Deborah Ward Thank you so much!!
@Anonymous You’re welcome! Please feel free to let me know if you have any questions.
fearing that my partner is a bad person, making me afraid of them, giving me dark, disturbing thoughts that they would never really do but it feels so convincing :(
@forre-tress It sounds like your OCD has latched onto someone that you really care about. That is so hard, and I know other members of the community have had similar struggles. What kinds of things do you do when these thoughts come up?
@NOCD Therapist - Deborah W. its hard to do anything, theyre terrifying to me. uncertainty isnt something i can deal with easily when some of the thoughts are trauma-fueled and involve me being hurt. its a massive struggle :(
@forre-tress OCD hates uncertainty! That’s why it brings up so much distress for people. OCD and trauma can also be very closely linked, so it makes sense that some of your fears are fueled by your past trauma. I am sorry to hear about your struggles. Have you ever engaged in any kind of treatment for this?
@NOCD Therapist - Deborah W. not yet but im hoping to soon. i know im strong and can get through this :) as hard as it is
@forre-tress You absolutely can! I hope you do see some of the success stories from others on this community, but I also have a video here of some others who have engaged in treatment: https://youtu.be/9CQ5YEs5Eks?si=HEJTKR02mVj3BsWp The only way out is through sometimes, and taking that first step can be the hardest one. Please let me know if I can help you out with anything 🙂
Overthinking about the concept of "the one" and fear around not picking the "perfect person", even when I'm in a happy relationship. Questioning everything
@Anonymous Yes! OCD loves that one because there’s never a way to be 100% sure. No amount of reassurance is going to get rid of all the “what if” questions there. How do you feel like you’re coping with these thoughts?
When I have ocd spikes it can be hard to be around my partner because of harm ocd intrusive thoughts regarding them
That is a huge one. OCD really latches onto the people we care about, which I am sure makes those thoughts even scarier when they come up. How do you cope with these thoughts?
I have a lot of fear of lusting against my partner. There’s a lot of images, feelings and sensations on my body and it’s really hard to not look at them but then I do and then I feel bad. I feel like I give into them but I don’t like them. And it’s a lot of spiraling
When I was in my last relationship I thought he could see everything I was doing or saying so I would always second guess everything I did, said, or even listened too, I honestly thought he wouldn’t like me if I did anything he wouldn’t like, I couldn’t freely post on insta or TikTok it was awful now that we broke up I feel a lot more free tho, but I wish I was more free in a relationship
Comment deleted by user
It definitely sounds like this anxiety is taking over for you! That need to have 100% certainty about things is a big driver of OCD and anxious thoughts. Have you learned about compulsions/safety behaviors at all before?
why do i feel as if im not in love with my boyfreind. like i love him but i dont get butterflies when im around him. and i feel like im giving him so many chances to be better.
Well, I can't say for certain what is going on in your relationship, but I can say as an OCD therapist, I have had a lot of clients with similar thoughts/feelings in their relationships. Including the lack of "butterflies"! This is a common OCD fear because rather than being able to just enjoy their relationship or the time they spend with their partner, their mind ends up being filled with ways they are "testing" their relationship. This can be done by seeing if your boyfriend does or knows the things you like without telling him to do it, or analyzing your body to see if it reacts in a ways that shows you love your boyfriend (ex. butterflies when you first see him). Have you ever received any kind of treatment for this or thought about talking to a professional about some of these thoughts?
It sucks that I feel I can’t be around people. Thinking people don’t like me. Thanking they are talking about me and other things. Running through my head that I detach myself from them and get outta the situation asap
That sounds like a lot of anxiety coming up for you! I imagine it makes it extremely difficulty to socialize with others if you are fearful that they don't like you. When did you notice this issue starting for you?
@Deborah Ward Within the past few years. It’s like I take in a lot of peoples stuff too. Thinking I’m like them. I was also diagnosed with schizophrenia affective disorder. It’s very hard to deal with it and anxiety
Heyy! Me and my partner don’t have the same religion and I really love him and he loves me too much too but I always feel like my life will be easier if I find someone else with the same religion but I don’t want to lose him as well and I get very confused
That is a very tricky situation you have going on. Religion is such a big part of people's lives and their family, so I see how being members of different religions can be really complicated. Have you consulted with anyone close to you about this situation?
Contamination. My husband doesn’t understand nor does he want to understand OCD. There was a time that I actually wanted to divorce him.
Our bodies know when something no isnmt right. Also our brains. If it is past trauma or anything else we still love the person and it is the trauma and everything else that manipulates it. You know when you know
What irritates me the most is that during intimacy with my husband, it happens that OCD puts an image and scene in my head, my sister or someone for whom my OCD is attached and it's literally as if that intimacy is happening with that person, and it seems real that I can and it's exciting! I'm working on ERP during that, but it's still hard to digest... I don't know if it's the same for you?
I’ve struggled a lot with mental illness (severe social anxiety, depression, OCD), but have done a lot of work to get to the great place that I’m at now. I feel like a different person compared to how I felt a few years ago. Here’s my question: I started seeing someone really important to me. We’re not official yet, but we’ve been in each others lives for years and it feels like it’s the real deal. He struggles with OCD, and it’s much worse than mine ever was. My question is, do you think this is healthy for me, as someone who has done the work to get to a better place? He’s not in therapy, he’s against medication (I love my meds — they changed my life), and is generally in a different place than I am mentally.
Lately my ROCD has been flaring up, making it difficult to even be around my partner. I’m having so many troubling thoughts with the one that bugs me most being, “maybe this isn’t my OCD, maybe I’m just in a bad relationship and I’m trying to cover it up and blame it on OCD”. This thought really scares me because there are valid doubts in my relationship but my boyfriend and I have openly talked about them and are trying to work through. My OCD won’t take that as an option tho. It makes me feel like I need to be 100% certain that these things can NEVER happen again or else we need to break up immediately. So anything he says in that moment about trying to do better, my OCD will not trust anything he says and just wait until the next “bad thing” happens. When I continuously bring these things up to my boyfriend even tho nothing has happened between these conversations, it exhausts him making it feel like he can never do enough. I feel so bad because I know it’s just my OCD getting in the way. But then that thought creeps in saying I can’t trust him because I need to protect myself. It’s just an ongoing cycle that is so tiring. I don’t even know what I want anymore. We are very opposite when it comes to emotions. I am very in tune and very emotionally intelligent, and he is not. He is the opposite. I do recognize that my anxious attachment style may be hard for him too but I can’t stop thinking about all of his flaws and all of the things he needs to do to make our relationship better. It makes me feel like I’m the only one putting in effort when in reality that is not true. But my OCD does make me feel like he doesn’t really love me or want to be with me and that he feels forced to be with me or do things for me. It makes me feel like him being with me is like a chore. Can anyone relate? My OCD just makes me feel like I can’t trust anything he says to make our relationship better.
Share your thoughts so the Community can respond