Im sleeping over my boys house and im having bad thoughts to hurt him and it’s like I can see myself acting on it. I never want to hurt anyone… I hope someone can comment or give me advice as I lie in bed watching crime documentary. It messes with my OCD creates false fantasies
yeah bro, I watch those too. I stopped watching them because it creates stupid thoughts. What’s the thought? I remember watching a documentary and now my thought is to “kill mom” but bro I stg it’s just stupid.
Remember that your thoughts are not true. I feel like watching crime documentaries feed more on your thoughts so maybe stop watching them.
hey, i struggle with this everyday too. you arent alone. i personally stopped watching all crime esp w heavy graphics. however, it is good to keep small pieces crime exposure to not completely desensitize. you are a good person, because you are saying you wouldnt, you wont. ik thats easy to say but try focusing on communicating with your friend, even if its small. that helps when i feel these towards the people around me. sorry if this advice isnt the best :(
Hi,I dont have harm ocd but I will say you have to practice ERP and accepting uncertainty, cause you will never get 100% certainty you won't harm your boys
Still dealing w this man?
@Ericseal18 Aw you’re awesome! 🥰 yeah unfortunately everyday because I don’t live alone just yet so like I can’t avoid the triggers
@AJ Rose Yeah, my thought is still to “kill mom” what about you? If you’re comfortable ofc.
@Ericseal18 Yeah I use to have those thoughts when I lived with mine. She’d just say hi and then boom the thought. Also, for me, it’s anyone I come in contact with. So I stay home 24/7 sadly not healthy but it keeps me stress free
@AJ Rose How did you get rid of them?
@Ericseal18 I don’t get rid of them, they eventually end up going away or I just smoke but I’ve been looking into erp
@AJ Rose How long do they usually stick around for?
@Ericseal18 On a good day 30-45 mins but sometimes hours, days, weeks etc
@Ericseal18 How about you?
@AJ Rose It’s really just one thought with me, it’s been 2 months but like I can distract myself but the instant I’m not distracted they are there. The thought went away for a few months but came back because it got triggered. But since it came back maybe 2 months.
@Ericseal18 Hope it gets better (:
@Ericseal18 Hey how are you doing my friend?
@AJ Rose Not bad I’ve been practicing not ruminating like when I know I am I’ll call it out and stop instantly
@AJ Rose How about you
@Ericseal18 That’s good and still the same unfortunately. Gonna go on NOCD and find a therapist later hopefully.
@AJ Rose You got it brotha, not to give any reassurance because I know it makes it harder.. but your brain is just taking something so little and dragging it on. You got this brotha
@Ericseal18 You have insta tik tok or anything think we can be friends? I think it sucks when I get on apps because I wanna connect with people and make friends who can relate to
TW!! I’m not doing well i dont know what’s real and what’s not so basically i get really really bad disturbing sexual thoughts abt family unfortunately and it feels so real and OCD makes me think I want or like the thoughts and sometimes family members touch me which sounds weird but I mean like on my arms and stuff I start laughing and smiling and I get rlly frustrated like I literally start to laugh and smile and grin and stuff and it makes me think i want these thought even more anyways so I purposely started to think of harm OCD intrusive thoughts to try and counter the ones I’m dealing with which ik it sounds like a compulsion but at least it’s working a bit and so I’m worried I don’t feel disturbed by these thoughts and I have no anxiety around them and I want to go to a mental ward but “my condition isint serious enough ” aghhhh
I know we’re not meant to ask for reassurance but I’m currently not in therapy and I need help, it feels scarily real and I feel like I’m not anxious or worried over the thoughts. I had stabbing thoughts about someone I care about and I started deliberately imagining them to test myself to see if I hate it or not but instead it felt like I knew how it feels to stab someone and like the feeling of doing that physical action and I swear it is the worst thing I have ever experienced as well I had moments where it felt like It was about to happen or I keep getting this really sick ‘happy’ feeling that I want to do that and I don’t know what that is but it feels incredibly real almost like I was getting a happy feeling or wanted to do that thing and jsut wasn’t giving into it and now I’m thinking I’m actually evil and it feels like I get a pleasurable feeling over the thought of doing that and would want to do it?? Because I ‘like’ the feeling of doing it or it would ‘feel’ good I swear I really don’t know what to do it feels incredibly real I feel like I can’t even say that I’m worried or scared because I feel like I’m lying and actually want it and have evil desires I’m really concerned, I have never done anything bad in my life, I feel like what if through experimenting and imagining the thoughts to test myself I have suddenly discovered I like it because it feels extremely real that I would ‘enjoy’ or like Doing that evil thing and it’s really concerning, i don’t understand I was fine a few days ago and suddenly I’m experiencing this? Is it possible to suddenly become evil i don’t want to be evil, but what if i like it and my desire to not be evil isn’t as strong as this ‘happy feeling’ i wish I can be normal I don’t want any of this please but I swear I feel like there is something wrong with me, I think this is the worst I’ve ever felt, like it feels like I want it and would enjoy it and it’s making me feel really worried but at the same time I don’t even know if I’m worried please help I need advice
Someone please help me I’m having intrusive thoughts of hurting my pets and I’m really scared of myself and I want these thoughts to go away. Can someone please help me I’m scared and I don’t know if I’m a monster
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