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This is totally relatable. When we are stressed, tired, worn down, or sick we are more vulnerable to OCD. Keep in mind also that OCD plays "tricks" and might try to convince you that you don't have OCD, therefore you're not getting better... it could be something else... how do you know for sure it is/is not OCD? Try to observe that thought and continue forward with your day as best you can without getting caught up in it. An extra dose of self-compassion and self-care when stressed, tired, sick is also a good move!

I spent years in denial or going back and forth with myself about having OCD. I learned about it because other people started noticing my symptoms and asking me. I always tried to rationalize it or use avoidance. I would say things like,"No, that's just the way I am." I would take one example of an OCD behavior that I don't have to explain away all the other ones I DO have. Someone could tell me an OCD person will check to make sure their door is locked over and over again, so I would respond with, "See and I don't do that, so I don't have OCD." 🤗 It didn't work in the long run, for as you can see, now I'm here. 🫠

I experience this too I’m so scared to use it as a excuse to something else just because it sounds better

It is not uncommon for this to occur around your period. I have seen individuals report that their monthly hormonal changes can play a role in their OCD for sure. Know that there is good help out there available to you if you are looking for it.

I’ve got a few other mental health issues and just recently figured out the OCD aspect. I love to gaslight myself about everything. I’ve kind of made a rule that I’m not allowed to make significant decisions when on my period or after a certain time of night because I know my mental state isn’t reliable. I have to go “my thoughts aren’t accurate right now so I’m not going to listen to them.” I can feel however I feel but I know that has to be independent of my worth or decisions

I sometimes, even now, wonder if it's just a severe case of GAD, however, I realize some of the themes I get are exclusive to OCD. I think it's common for OCD itself to make you doubt you have it.