Does anyone else ever feel like they don’t feel “bad enough” to have OCD, or that they don’t feel “the right way” for it? Or like they’re just saying they have OCD as an excuse? Because i was so much better for like 3 weeks now and now im on my period and i started doubting again. So because of that im scared that i was feeling to good and that my fear is actually true.
This is totally relatable. When we are stressed, tired, worn down, or sick we are more vulnerable to OCD. Keep in mind also that OCD plays "tricks" and might try to convince you that you don't have OCD, therefore you're not getting better... it could be something else... how do you know for sure it is/is not OCD? Try to observe that thought and continue forward with your day as best you can without getting caught up in it. An extra dose of self-compassion and self-care when stressed, tired, sick is also a good move!
@Katelin Jobin Thank you for that!!
@Katelin Jobin Can i ask you a question? Soo is it normal for ocd that im checking if the door is locked over and over again every night to kind of “proof” myself that i actually do have ocd but in the past i never did that?
@spelamarela - Hello there! Excellent question. I wonder if you may be willing to sit with this curiosity. A practice we teach in ERP is to notice our intentions for doing a behavior (especially if it is a compulsion - such as trying to seek-reassurance to make ourselves feel better in some way). It is helpful to do this work with a therapist. If you have questions about getting started with treatment, payment plan options, etc., consider giving the NOCD Care Team a call at treatmyocd.com
@Hi_123 Hey you can talk to me
@Hi_123 So, I really get you—I’m struggling with the same thing, just with HOCD (I’m scared of being a lesbian). And I really want to switch to POCD because I just know that it’s not real for me, but I can’t. What you’re describing are clear signs of OCD. That thought and the feeling that you liked it? It’s completely false—I can tell you that for sure. OCD will do anything to make you feel like you are something you’re not or don’t want to be. It makes you feel weird about things that are actually normal and don’t mean anything at all! When I was listening to your story, I realized that some of the same things happened to me too, although I can’t remember exactly what. So, girl, I am pretty sure you have nothing to worry about. Please trust me—just let the thoughts be. I know it might sound impossible and terrifying, but that’s exactly what OCD is about! If you really were… you know what… I’m pretty sure you wouldn’t even care. I have a question for you… so does your fear feel like intuition? because i feel like it’s my intuition telling me that im a lesbian and it’s sooo bad!!! So yeah, I hope this helps you!
@Hi_123 This doesn’t make you a you know what… i also did this with my dog and i was sooo ashamed. But it doesn’t mean that im attracted to dogs (this maybe sounds weird)😭😭😭. It’s the same with kids. Ocd make you overthink and analyze but it’s nothing deep. You probably just wanted to make the kid happy and ocd is making things weird.
I spent years in denial or going back and forth with myself about having OCD. I learned about it because other people started noticing my symptoms and asking me. I always tried to rationalize it or use avoidance. I would say things like,"No, that's just the way I am." I would take one example of an OCD behavior that I don't have to explain away all the other ones I DO have. Someone could tell me an OCD person will check to make sure their door is locked over and over again, so I would respond with, "See and I don't do that, so I don't have OCD." 🤗 It didn't work in the long run, for as you can see, now I'm here. 🫠
So you had meta ocd? (Fear of having ocd itself). Because i had this too!!! It was my first bigger theme and it was awful!! I was sooo scared that i have ocd and that im weird and im gonna go crazy and can’t control my mind. I just didn’t like the word ocd and that something is wrong with my brain. But one day my theme switched to something else and now i wish that i have ocd🥲 so confusing!!!
@spelamarela Yes, I was in denial about it but kinda knew I had it at the same time for years. I would do a lot of mental compulsions and avoidance.
@It took me this long to get help because I don't like the word "disorder." Okay but you didn’t stress about it? Or you did?
@spelamarela Absolutely! I would ruminate and research and tried to manage it myself. I just didn't want to have it lol
@It took me this long to get help because I don't like the word "disorder." Omg yes it was the same with me! But now i have different obsession and it feels the same so because of that im scared that this fear is also true because it feels like i know its true but don’t want to accept it. I hate it.
@spelamarela They said OCD can latch on to anything. Sounds like something one of the therapist or support groups could help with. Because if it is OCD you can figure out how to stop obsessing over it. Then, if it's true, you can decide how you want to handle it.
@It took me this long to get help because I don't like the word "disorder." Oh your making me stressed😭 what if its not ocd😭😭
I experience this too I’m so scared to use it as a excuse to something else just because it sounds better
@eafik36 Sameee! But it’s probably just ocd…
It is not uncommon for this to occur around your period. I have seen individuals report that their monthly hormonal changes can play a role in their OCD for sure. Know that there is good help out there available to you if you are looking for it.
@Patrick McGrath Yes i want to reach out for help but im waiting for the right therapist here on nocd!
I’ve got a few other mental health issues and just recently figured out the OCD aspect. I love to gaslight myself about everything. I’ve kind of made a rule that I’m not allowed to make significant decisions when on my period or after a certain time of night because I know my mental state isn’t reliable. I have to go “my thoughts aren’t accurate right now so I’m not going to listen to them.” I can feel however I feel but I know that has to be independent of my worth or decisions
@Newintown! That’s a really good idea! Thank you so much!
I sometimes, even now, wonder if it's just a severe case of GAD, however, I realize some of the themes I get are exclusive to OCD. I think it's common for OCD itself to make you doubt you have it.
Sometimes i feel like im using ocd as an excuse. What if i dont really have it and im just freaking myself out? Does anyone feel this way
That’s kinda my question. All my thoughts feel so realistic and so now I doubt if they are ocd and if I just can’t make my mind up about something and I’m using ocd as an excuse or something idc I feel like this post is word vomit.
These past few days I was fine. Minimal intrusive thoughts ,no anxiety etc(to add I'm on medication so maybe it's starting to work although it barely is 2 weeks) and today I got a sudden wave of anxiety and it started latching on some thoughts like" what if I'm in denial and I wanna break up with my bf? And what if erp doesn't work for me because I actually wanna break up with my bf?" But they didn't really stay long usually those thoughts would make me spiral for days or so, now they lasted for some hours. And now I'm trying to trigger myself into being anxious again because if I don't it means I don't have ocd and if I don't have ocd it means I don't love my bf and if I don't love my bf it means I have to break up. Idk if it makes sense but the lack of anxiety makes me wonder if I actually have ocd or not.
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