It's all OCD

The repeating thoughts about insecurities, negative self talk, and not being good though are just more of OCD. I feel so done.

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 27w

Yes and that goes for unmerited negativity towards those you love as well is what I’ve noticed. Constant criticism of my boyfriend in my head, it’s exhausting and so confusing. It’s all so frustrating. I’m sorry you’re going through this. It’s hard being bombarded by these thoughts but no matter the content, OCD is just OCD, you know how to combat it. You’re strong and you can do this

BigGyro09

Date posted: 27w

I don't know if I know how to combat it actually. I'm constantly getting the same stupid dumb thoughts about myself and I'm just really pissed off and irritated by them.

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 27w

@BigGyro09 You treat it like your other OCD thoughts, like a bully. That’s the example my therapist gave me. You wouldn’t argue back and forth with a bully because they’ll just get meaner, louder, and more nasty. You’re not supposed to reply, but if you need to, go against your instinct to defend yourself. **Bully calls your mom fat?** “Yep, she’s huge.” **Bully calls you a pathetic human?** “Yeah I’m scum.” **Bully calls you ugly and short (in an insulting way)?** “YEP and I LOVE IT.” What’s the bully gonna do? Say **oh my god *you* CALLED YOUR MOM FAT?** “Yep, I did.” **You’re an awful person** “Hell yeah, I’m the worst.” It’s normal to get mad at the bully. That’s okay, a healthy response. But don’t let the bully see that. I hope that kinda helps

j vv

Date posted: 27w

Sorry you are feeling this way. Hopefully you are working in therapy on this — it’s made a big difference in my life after a pretty short time. My reactions to my intrusive thoughts were often anger, frustration, self-doubt or self punishment, etc. What I’m learning is that not every thought deserves a reaction. Not every thought is indicative of who you are. They are just thoughts. If your brain feeds you a weird one every now and again that makes you uncomfortable, practicing sitting with that uncertainty (with the guidance of a therapist) is how you break the anxiety/fear/anger feedback loop. Hopefully you get there soon. For now, try not to be too hard on yourself. Take a break from worrying. Log what you are feeling so you can bring it up in therapy in your next appointment and then distract yourself with things you enjoy. I’m a big believer that small positive changes can make HUGE positive shifts over time. Good luck!!

BigGyro09

Date posted: 27w

Honestly I forgot about the whole "thoughts are just thoughts" things. The thing with my thoughts is that I can actually disprove them with facts but I think that's just reassurance that makes them come back again and again. I don't know if I would keep on disproving them or I should just let them be there. I'm not sure if letting them be there helps but I definitely will say searching compulsions against it definitely make my mood a whole lot worse, so I need to stop doing that.

j vv

Date posted: 27w

I totally get it. I think assigning meaning to every thoughts is a big thing with OCD. I wasn’t very aware that I was doing it before therapy! Choosing not to engage with the thoughts or compulsions is super hard, so don’t beat yourself up. I’m still pretty new to therapy, but it seems to be a skill that takes time to develop! One thing I learned that helped is “may or may not”. Basically, “I may or may not be a bad person. In fact, it seems impossible to tell. Oh well! I’m not going to analyze this anymore.” “I may or may not be thinking something that is real. But it is definitely stressing me out, so I’m going to step away and not think about this for now.” I’ve been surprised how quickly these thoughts that freak me out disappear if I try to accept the uncertainty in the moment. Hopefully you are working with a therapist to navigate this! Feel better soon.

Ericseal18

Date posted: 24w

Obsessive thought

I’m tired of thinking about the same OCD thought to “kill mom” it just doesn’t leave. I try to break the cycle but when it’s broken it just sits there and waits to be interacted with. Idk what to do im tired of it. And it makes me feel like a psycho path and I’m tired of not feeling like myself.

moon0270

Date posted: 24w

Makes me feel like a horrible person

That's what OCD feels like. Especially the constant questioning and doubt and the more you do it, the more you doubt yourself and it ends up leaving you open for other 'attacks'. I left the house today with my mom to run errands and things were fine, like my intrusive thoughts weren't bothering me that much in the beginning though they're constant in the background. Then when we stopped to get a drink from this store before leaving, I got more anxious because there were lots of kids around (it's afternoon here and i guess school was coming out). Kids were walking around in school uniform and I just told myself to keep looking away because i knew that my intrusive thoughts were going to flare up. Obviously that just made it worse and I just wanted to run away and crawl into a hole or something. Then a few minutes passed and then my brain said what if you were leering at the kids or looking at them inappropriately. And then my brain kept telling me that I wanted to or must have filmed one of them even though it's not something I want to do and know deep down that I didn't do it and don't want to. Ever. I just felt so disgusted with myself, I had to stop myself from crying on the way home. I hate this disease and I hate that its made its home in my head.

LizM99

Date posted: 20w

Is this something OCD does?

Whenever anyone starts to feel like their thoughts are less triggering or they feel a moment of happiness/ relief OCD tells you that you want the thoughts back or you actually like having the thoughts and maybe thats just the person I really am? I feel like im going insane😢

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